Sep 4 willits

Sep 4 willits Last night I slept outside. Did not sleep deep, but I felt it's ok. Sleep out makes things much easy. I don't need look for shelter or connect couchsuffing or ask anyone to offer me a place to stay. I hope someday I even don't need to think where I will sleep. I wake up early , i felt my cheeks missed kisses. When I was at home, morning Sean always gave me two big kisses on my cheeks. When i got up, a truck parked their nearby me very early. When I got up. The driver noticed me. I waved and " good morning" to him. I guessed he might be surprised this street sleeper is a woman. I collected stuff. Thought to go to some store to use bathroom to take care body work. I remembered the Macdald last night I have been there. It was pretty far. I asked the direction to San Francisco. So I walked back, tried to get ride, I thought if I got ride, my driver always know where I can use bathroom. I walked with heave, my eyes kept scanning where is fit to release. When I passed by the Korean church , I saw some trees behind the wall, I chose here, I found there was a box , some books and other stuff inside. I took the bible to put it in my bag. a few yellow hard paper. They are good to do hitchhiking sign. I did releasing job. Now I felt much better. Sunshine became more beautiful. I kept going , I saw Teco Bell , I went in , did face work in bathroom. I left the bible in the bathroom. I thought someone may take it home or someone may read it and saved while sitting on toilet. If hotel room have bible, bathroom should have bible too. I continued to walk. I thought i want to go home, my tears went out. My heart lost patience. I tried to find the road I should go. I utamala young man picked me up. He said he saw me walk, some can see , someone can't see me. He dropped me a entrance ,went to work . A man picked me up drove me only one exit, he did not want to listen what I spoke, he stopped at his hotel directly. "You eat lunch, take shower, tomorrow I will drive you to Mendocino. " I wanted to go home today , not tomorrow , this is morning. I don't want to stop here. Certainly i know he wanted something. I was tired, I was losing tempment. I got out car and walked to the entrance. Here is Tracy. Luckily very quick a old lady stopped. This was the only old lady who gave me ride. Her name is Ewlen, she is from Jesus ' home town , was born Bethlehem , Israel .she was going to San Jose . That is in south. And then she asks if I can get out in someplace , that 's even further south. I know women are easy confused. So I watched the road sign closely. Ewlen dropped me at the Juction of 680, she turned to South. She is a good Christian. She preached God all the time along the road. When she know I slept outside last night. She wish I could come to her home. I did ask my drivers navaho couple to keep me a night. But they didn't agree, and they droped in Manteca instead letting me follow them to Concord. They are nice couple , they picked me up and drove me so far. I should not have any balminess to them. We are human, our love is limited , so we need God. Ewlen gave me a bottle of water and a can of soda. She told me call her. This spot is not fit hitchhiking, after a while waiting, I thought to walked to next exit, try another entrance. I walked on freeway. A police car behind me shouted" don't walk on freeway. Get out!" I heard that. I turned back . A police car pull back emergently stopped. A policeman immediately got out door. He show a hand " stop!" i topped.he asked " what are you trying to do?" " I wanted to get out, but I don't know how I can get out." I guessed he understood I just confused. " get out of freeway? Walk to the front, see the white.. " I knew there, I walked from there. I was just trying to walk back there. I went to gas station, held the sign WEST 580 . Finally I decided to ask for help . I saw a black man was adding oil. He was done his work, already sat behind the wheel.I put down bag , quickly ran to him. He told me many reasons that he could not gave me a ride. He thought this was the entrance 580. He did not know another entrance. When he mentioned he was going to oakland, I insisted to ask him to take me to Oakland. Where do you want to go in Oakland? I have no place in car. " I can't help." you have place.if you want to help, God alway give you plenty place." he did not say he agree to take me. But i saw he got out of car, he took the stuff on the front seat to the truck back case. I laughed. I know I won . His memery remanded me of my exhusband. He is best memory I have ever seen. I his book shift , he let take out a book , open any page , started the first sentence , he will memory whole article . He read extreme fast, a novel within one day. After I got in truck. We started to talk. Grayhound , 46$ tiket to willits , when hugged him, I almost was in tears. He refused to give me ride. Now he drove me grayhound . Spend $46 buy ticket for me, he would like to be my blessing . He asked me to pray for him. He has excellent memery , bible . He has never been Mendocino , he does want to go to china , or even europe , because I am black, I know you are black . I know this great country giVe black give me -- sometimes darker than some black a Respection as a human. I understand him. He has never hitch hiked . In grayhound , a lady name Angela , I asked to borrow telphone , she asked for a couple dollars " I am hungry" . I absultle say yes, I gave her two dollars and food: a can of pinuts , a bag of potato chips . She mentioned macdald , Mexican teco bell, when I put my bag in tag in the counter, she went there hold some cents in hand to ask me to buy soda . Finallily I said " No" , I hate to say this word to the needy, especially to women. Grayhound late half hour arrived in willits . When istood on highway 20, thumbing, a man I the jack box teco bell door , hello me. I did not hear clearly what he say, I waved to him as respond. After a while he came to me, " are you hungry!" he handled me a teco. His name is John. He was going to Oregon. I asked if he can give me a ride. He may drive me home and stay at my home a night , tomorrow he can continue his way. He said he hitch hikes . He does not have a car. I asked where he sleep? He said he sleep outside.i thought outside is cold at night in Willits. I was trying hitchhiking home. I didnot want to sleep outside tonight. I thought Sean told me to sleep in Willits. Sean is my head, his word is commandment, so might I will stay in Willits. I don't want him be sick, if tonight I go home late, bother his rest, he will be weak . I don't him happened anything wrong because i come back . I told John , we may get ride, he can stay at my home for tonight. So we together thumbing on roadside. This was the first time I became a part of a hitchhiker group . I felt fun we two persons thumbed up. A truck slowed down toward to us . I Prayed: stop , stop, . When it reached me, suddenly something threw out of window , I got wet and dirty immediately. Some cigarettes buds and coffee on the my thirt and face and bag , I think I got 90%, John got 10%. So I guessed that person possibly hate hitchhikers or hate women hitchhikers,or hate Asian hitchhikers or hate a woman hitchhiker thumbing with a white young man hitchhiker. More than 4 months hitchhiking traveling , more than 5 months hitch hiking went to work every day, it has never happened that. I indeed found someone hate or don't like hitchhikers, when I stood at roadside or ramp , I found several time some one pionted me with finger, and unfriendly face. That 's ok, I cannot control other people's mind. There is no one thought for anything in the world. John was angry, he spoke bad words about that man. I said that's ok. He did not throw knife or shoot gun at me. This is small thing. Just forgive him. John got discourage , he gave up hitchhiking, we hugged each other, blessed each other , he left, to look for a place to sleep. I tried to get ride, until close to 9pm. I kniw my boss Sean is right, if the boss say so, it is so. I will have to stay in willits, sleep outside. This would be last night of my this trip. John was going Oregon to see his family , he was raised by foster home. His mother was missing, when he was small, his father , I don't remember what happened about his father. I told him, my best friend Christopher is adopted. that 's ok, we all are in God,God 's love covers you. He is 18 years old. He is on road a year, he plays homonica, I did not have any sad feeling about him. Opposite, I admire him, he is on road a year, I just 4 months. his looking is beautiful. For 18 years old, no ugly at all. He has a simple bag, with two blankets band under the bag. He wears short and t shirt. He snooze , I thought he is cold at evening. Some kinds of love moving in my heart. It minght be mother for son, older sister for little bother, or even a women for a man, I did not know what I can do for him. I hope we can get ride, so he can stay at my home, tomorrow we can give him some dollars and some food, he will continue his road. When he gave up trying to get ride, he left, I watched his back , lift him to God, heavenly father, please protect John, provide him , and bless him. Finally I give up thumbing Tonigh. I went in jack box , bought a hamburger. When the girl asked me eat here or go. The answer was eat here. Because my clothes was wet, i felt cold. that man threw dirt on me. This is my only long sleeves shirt. I tried let it dry. Jack box closed on 1am, I thought I may stay here a while , but my mind could not calm down , i thought of macdonald in New York city , when i wanted to stay there for the night, how's that man treated me. I felt my mind cound not focus on typing or reading. so I left after eat. I went out to look for a spot to sleep. I thought this was good place. There were several newspaper boxes along the coner. Inside restauntant is lights on . Through glass door, on roadside. This is port, I have shelter on roof, I have 3 sides walls, I watched and thought . There are 6 sides of a box or a house, if I get a place there are 4 sides , that 's good enough. After typing ipod a while, I fall into sleep. My God , Policeman came. The flash on face , I Police car came two of three cars , he smiled while talk with me. check me ID, I know you are a good person. I tried to get up, because I hang the small bag across me, the big bag belt on my arm, if someone steal while I was sleeping , I may know . But now suddenly a group policemen came , it is not easy I stood up strait ly with two bags bands roads my body and arm. I told them when I arrived here, the bus was late, I tried to catch car. He want to check my license , what license ? I cannot drive. He thought I have some kinds illness . I am too nervous . He smiled " you don't like drive." He told me " you can't sleep on public police. You can go to 8 miles camping in forest , 2 miles ,,, place " " do you anyone here, no , hotel. I can'nt afford. He saw my ID card address , I said I live there, that is my home. Do you know anyone there , can you call them to come to pick you? " " my husband can't drive in darkness. " he surprised I have husband , " he doesn't care about you sleep outside?" Anyway , packing and left, to look for anothe spot. Do you have 24 hours open store, he mention several stores names , but they don't open 24 hours. Gas station store 24 hours , but you can't stand there whole night , Otherswise they will call us again. That meant someone called police to report a woman sleep some place. So they came to check me. So now I know I should hide some warm place, don't let people see me. I have to hide in bush , John said I hide in bush , that 's When I walked in bush , I hurt my ankle left foot. Not big deal. Anyway here is my sweet home, my bed room. I type iPod late , morning 2am, I wake up, it was too cold, I wear the pisano shirt , Andrew in norfolk gave it to me. I ate the left part of hanberger and some snakes, now I felt much better, I kept work on writing until 4am , and then slept a while . After 5:30, I got up, cleaned up, went to Safeway, I rush teeth , wash face, bought some banana as breakfast . It was still early and cold , I went to Jack box,