May 8 , San Luis Obispo

May 8 , San Luis Obispo I am leaving Salinas today, keep going south . Gloria is a very nice lady, she has stayed at Dorothy's place half year. I asked "are you the longest one?" " no. Some one 10 years, someone 7 years .. " I don't know what reason they stay in shelter so long time. They may have physical or mental problems, or may other reasons. Last night when I was writing about the experiment with Joe to court . I asked 3 persons how to spell " judge" , they all cannot tell me. So I guessed probably most of them cannot read or write. Finally the iPod technology helped me find the " judge" . That also reminded me that perhaps they don't like the word " judge" . all they (we) need is love. When I read bible about that Eve and Adam ate the fruit , their eyes opened, they were smart same as God, they could tell what is right and what is wrong. I had spent many years on serpent side: with opened eyes to see and get the knowledge to judge.I thought that were intelligent, gifted and talent. Finally, someday I understood, we open big eyes to check what you are doing is right or wrong, that is not our business.God take care of that part. Our job is love. God put love in people' s hearts. Even in shelter. Gloria told me " a lot of argument . Don't pay attention " she also told another complaining woman " she is neat girl, don't be close to her. " I think that I am ok in such condition. God always take care of me, now through Gloria. Before I left, Gloria took out $20 bill from her pockage and put it in my hand. I don't know how to say, $20 from a woman who lives shelter might be bigger than 2 billions from Warren Beffet . she said she doesn't need money. I wanted to leave the bag of chocolate to her, "I can' t eat sweet". and her eyes can't read.i thought l would leave the book Christianity History to her. George gave it to me, i tried to find time to read. While along the road, both my backpack and my heart receive love from the people who were blessed by God. Jennifer who works in shelter gave me $3 ticks to take bus. I was pretty quick to find the south 101 entrance. The problem is that it is on the middle lane instead of right lane. While I was waiting for a ride, a car behind me hocked the horn, the driver waved to me. I was so happy to see this heavenly signal. " if yo yo you s s suck my d d dick , I will ta ta take you there. ". " what?". He repeated one more time " if y y you s s s ..." while his hand pointed his down stair. I shut up my smile and went away. I was thinking to take bus to king city , from there hitch hike to south 101, this was the suggestion from shelter ladies . While i was still standing there, another horn spoke to me. "Can you take me to the bus station? " "I want oral pleasure." "what?" "i want oral pleasure ." he pointed his mouth. If the first one I can sense or feel , but for the second one my this function totally failed . His looking was pretty handsome , nice smile with dimples , dark skin. I especially watched his eyes They are 100% normal , nothing wrong . I even thought he was just teasing, I even tried to tell him you are a much better person than yourself could think of . " I may give you a hug . You can 't get anything more than that . " We didn't get agreement to exchange service for each other. So i walked the bus station . These two are little things. I even don' t count these two men as bad. They may just have some " dirty thought " and want it come true . They didn' t cheat , didn't force. They just offered a service for exchange , they have already gave me two chioces : I may agree or not agree. There was same story happened on these three men: my sweet husband Sean, his friend Roger, our gardener Russell, when they were hitch hike in their youth, the driver tried to touch their hotspot. Plus several ladies told me that the drivers played their own pleasure. Such stories made me nervous many days. When i sat in car I Paid attention where is his hand. One time a black young man picked me up to Safeway, While his left hand on steer wheel, his right hand on certain place. He did nothing wrong. The reason that misled me was that his pants were too big . :) If my driver play his own pleasure, what can I say ? Car is his own car, pleasure is his own pleasure. He also leave me two choice : I may take a look for fun or I may get out car for safety . Because that would be more dangerous than alcohol or drug or speaking on cellphone .