May 29th night on the truck to TX

May 29th night on the truck to TX Morning. Jan drove me to s insurance company to take maps. I get a US map, and 4 pieces of states maps. And then we went to church. About 20 women came here to design quilts. They make quilts to donate to children in needed .I followed Jan's guide to choose 81 pieces of fabric, tried to put them into a 9 x9 pattern. When I started to do, I found it was not that easy as I thought. After I was done the job, Jan helped me to collect the fabric in order and numbered them. She said she will make it into a quilt,take a photo and send to me. Jan has been helping this charity for many years. Her heart is passionate to the needed kids. She is so talented on sewing. There are several quilts hanging on the walls in her home,they are simply beautiful art. Every year Sean and I get special birthday cards or Christmas gifts from her. We hanged the sewing cards and stocking on our wall too. That is nice touching when I see them. Thank God for letting Jan to be my sister. It was 10 o'clock, we were on the road to the freeway 10 entrance. Jan was driving, I was on the passenger seat beside her. At that time,I felt my whole mind and whole heart and whole body were overwhelmed by fear, I wanted to hold Jan to cry " I am afraid to go out, let me stay at home ." my all tears were in my eyes. In a month traveling I have never been so fearful as today. Even I felt weak or wept in Salina and Pheonix. I think it might be "home" that made me weak. Jan and Jim are my family, after two relaxable days, I lost some guts in my body. Jan might had more fear than me. She has never traveled as a tourist, she did visit several states, that all were to see family members. Jan is my family member.i have met Sean 's brother James and sister Moniel, Now I saw Jan, Sean's another sister. As a immigrant, I came to America. I have no family here. But this great country opened her arms to receive me. My husband is my home, his family is my family. I am so happy that my family love me. I feel so lucky. Sean has one brother and two sisters,I Have met them all now. I love them. When we arrived at the entrance. Jan got out car and put a envelop in my backpack . There were a beautiful card writing blessings and $40 inside. I thought of the saying , "Blood is thicker than water. " $40 is the biggest donation I received during a month traveling. Feishia gave me $100 before I left and with tears she preyed for me. If we say blood is thicker than water , that certainly fit Feishia , she is Chinese, and She is Christian, so we are sisters in blood, we are sisters in Christ. I am not talking that more money is thicker,less money is thinner for relationship. But we may agree that money is one of the ways of expressing love. Jan and Feishia and all those who gave me a ride or put a dollar in my tip jar, or keep me a night, or dropped a bottle of water while I waiting under the sun, ..., those all are love. A gentleman drove me to Tucson. At there i started a tough hitchhiking day. I tried different corners around the intersection. I broke some small branches from trees and used them to make a hat for myself. the sun just loved me too much, gave me big hot kisses on my face, arms,and everywhere he could find the places . A black man walked to me,his name is Todd. I followed him to his home. He has a old sick wife ,named Dabi. that reminded me that my old husband is smiling at home. I am so glad Sean is healthy. Todd has 3 dogs too, they urgently wanted love from me, jumped on my tap,lay on my side,squeezed into my arms, wanted me to scratch their bellies or comb their hair or any languages of love. Sometimes we understand dogs easier than people. Todd offered me some ice water. He tried to call his boss and friends to give me a ride to New Mexico tomorrow. Finally , he found a person to take me to the truck stop. He was Latino, spoke a very little English. But I know he was a totally kind person. I asked him to leave me at the entrance near the truck stop. Because my experience told me that truck stops don't work out for me. So I decided to wait at the entrance. It was close to 5pm, the distance to Las Cruces is 4 and half hours driving. I don't know where I sleep for tonight, so I thought I may wait until it was getting dark. a big truck stopped, I felt pretty a amazing,this was first time that big truck picked me up. A new story was going to happen...