May 25, Tempe, AZ

May 25, Tempe, AZ I wake up at 6am, this was the time Yassee told me. Before he got up,I put everything into the backpack, just ready for him to say "go". But I did not wash face or brush teeth. I was afraid to do any "extra" things in his house, except I had to pee in his toilet. It was not that easy to say "go" . After Yassee got up, cleaned up, dressed up, he let me "wait" . He opened the garage door, he told me "wait here" . I did not understand why he let me "wait" instead take bag to car and go. But i am smart enough, i normally don't ask "why" . Sometimes no " why" to ask. I watched what he was doing: he went outside and drove the car back into garage.he parked outside last night, second morning he moved the car inside before drive it to work. It's too strange? I understood ! He waved to me , let me go to the car. Yes, I understood what he was trying to do. He told me " if today you go to convention center, don't tell other people that we know each other. " "I will dropped you in McDonald, there is free wifi." thank you for the massage." "sorry, I can't help you tonight". " if you write book, don't write my name. You can just say a guy from Afghanistan. " The original plan was that he will drop me on convention center where he works. Very often we are not afraid God, but we are afraid this world. We are afraid what gossipy my neighbors will say, what color my wife's face will change into, what my friends, coworkers, uncles.... will talk about. If we listen to God only, we will be doing better on our mission and live happier on our lives. Yassee backed the car into garage, because he did not want neighbors to see me. They might think or talk something "wow, that woman must slept in his home last night ... ..." " he looks like a good person, he even did such thing?!" girlfriend will be crazy and start a huge argument, that need a big money gift to show her his true love. Wow , my God, this world is really complex. I believe many people would like to help me, give me a ride or keep me a night. but they didn't, because they fear the world. They want to continue their normal lives, they don't want to get into extra "trouble". So they didn't get any extra blessing either. The main contribution for this are wives. Most my host families are single man homes. So I think that might be the reason Jesus did not get marriage, if Jesus had a wife, could he go to taxman home to eat, and be good friend with a prostitute ? He might even couldn't gave me , a honest married christian woman, his robe to keep me in warm, or walk with me a mile to find my direction. But Jesus is single man, he is the groom for the world, we are all his brides. Women love their husbands, that 's God commandment, this commandment is as a punishment of eating the forbidden fruit in Eden garden. God gave us the most important commandment is to love God ,Jesus,our groom, husband, with our whole heart , all strength and mind. Know God is the beginning of wisdom. if we don't know God, we simply don't understand what is love and have no knowledge how to love. Thank God for letting me know I am a rib, my position is to complete my husband to be a man. I always Morning yessee let me wait , he back the car into garage , then let me in , he is afraid other propel to see me , will gaspil he had a woman sleep in his house . He decided he will not let me stay another night. He dropped at mcdonno , tell me if I go to convention center , don't tell other people we know each other, if you write me in your book , don't write my name , just say a guy from afgnistan. I me Daniel in mcdone I borrow telephone to call Sean , Daniel bought breakfast for me . I found he is pastor , his wife ruby just bacons citizen . I tried up play flute in somewhere , made serval dollars , not good bussness. In starbucks, I email Jeff , I hope tonight to stAy in his home, he was so nice , he did not complain anything about I changed the plan. Just let me be quiet when I come into the house because he sleeping . He works night shift I vsme into house in the darkness , quietly same as theft . I thought if I went into wrong house , that would be too funny. After a while Jeff got up, he found I was already here , we met face to face now. He cool "breakfast" and prayer , eat go to work . I was tired , could not continue to writing , falling into sleep .