May 14,Los Angels

May 14,Los Angels Kelly was my driver from Santa Monica to the train station to LA. He was friendly and intereting person. His several Chinese words made me laugh. He thought i am " sheng jing bing", this was the first time I heard this word from a foreign speaker. "sheng jing bing" original meaning is mental illness , If this word is not from a doctor's mouth, normally means "crazy, abnormal,"it is a little bit of negative word, if not bad word. Kelly stopped at a gas satiation and helped me to call Megan and Eric who live in LA. Megan is Sean's exgirl friend's daughter, i have never meet her. so i pretty like to see her. Eric is Sean's friend 's son. We ve met two times. I didn't get answer from Megan. Eric was so happy for my coming. So tonight I stayed in a 50 years old single man 's home. During we were eating lunch in a mexican restraunt, Erick's phone rang. It was Kelly. Erick reported peace: I picked Spring in Union Station ... We have lunch.... . Kelly one more time reminded me " ni xiao xin" (be careful). Kelly is my only driver who traced my safety by telephone. It sounds he has responsibility to transfer me in one price to next person. He absolutely thinks hitchhiking "too dangerous " , when I mentioned " my husband " , he surprised I have husband. That is interesting,I have husband that sounds a bigger news than today newspaper cover. He said he will not let his wife hitchhiking doesn't matter she is Chinese , Japanese , black , white. Look , how lucky I am , I am not his wife . I am Sean Will's wife. He asked my age, he thought I am 27,28. That made me happy. " I give my all money to you!" i responded. I personally don't think any age is better than another age, life is a process, when I was 27,28, I didn't understand I was beautiful at that years . When I was 22,23, I experienced the most difficult time in my life, the whole world was darkness in my eyes,bitter in my heart. the only thing i had been thinking was suicide. I am so thankful to God, he helped me to conquer the difficulties during the my youth and bright my mind. Even I give my all money to Kelly, yGod will not agree to let me back to 27 years old. So I just simply enjoy being 45. I am so blessed with heathy and strong body, I walked 12 hours in Santa Monica with my big backpack. A young man I met in San Luis Obispo , 20 years old, told me one day he walked 14 hours. I almost reach his record. Sometimes I cannot refuse someone's good intention. Kelley talked with Eric how to deliver me, and then drove me to the train station. He even didn't asked me to agree with that. He just did not want me to hitchkhiking, because " too dangerous". Erick lives in Tujunga with his cat Mondu. His place is around mountains, after I took a nap on the bench under trees, we went to a greek (river) to swim. I cannot swim, but playing water is always fun. With long pants and shirt I sinked myself in water. after a while I was thinking to take off pants, it was really heavy. finally I decided to ask " can I take off my pants?" now I am typing this sentence I feel this is pretty funny question or request. Erick is gay, same sex person, I think at least I should respect his personal life. If he doesn't like to see a woman with " bikini " playing in water. I may sit on the bank and enjoy to see the view. I got Erick's permission. And then I thought: if I take off pants that is ok, certainly I take off top that is no problem. Learn to swim that is similar to learn driving car. It is not easy for me. It did remind me of Christopher, all encouragement he said when he taught me to drive. The difference was that I wore more cloth when I was with him. :-) After we got on bank, I asked Erick to take some photos of me. At evening I sent them to my sweet husband Sean. I thought to send to Christopher, but I know that 's not right. If I can't say "I love you" to him. I surely can 't send these photos to him. That is a part of my life, struggling in happiness. I cooked some Chinese food as dinner in home. I hoped Erick enjoyed them.