June 18, Iowa city,

June 18, Iowa city, Matt was my tallest driver. He has many dreams and nice to talk. He delivered me to the door of Tanner's home, my next host. Tanner's dream is same as mine: hitchhiking whole world. When he received my request, his respond was" come on, Spring." Tanner is a handsome young man , he has a girl friend Laura and and a cat Nicole living together with him. I got their beautiful colorful couch as my dreamland. After a basic introduction and lunch, Tanner dropped me in the downtown. It was hot afternoon. Both weather and food made me sleepy. I walked a while , looked around. I sat and finally lay down on the grass under the tree to take a nap. That really helped a lot. When I woke up, I felt much more energy in my body. So I kept walking around. In the Iowa university, I found some benches on good place. so I sat there to take break. Someone called my telephone, I though it was Tanner. He said he is Chris. I understood, he will be my host in Chicago on Wednesday and thursday. This Chris broke my all dream about Christ(opher)s. he had already emailed me tons questions, and now he called my telephone. Warren in San Jose gave me this cell phone and recharged $15. It has very limited minutes, just for emergency. Christ talked and asked what plan I have in Chicago and after Chicago where I am going... I tried hardly to say we will talk face to face when I get to chicago, I tried more and more times to say thank you for wiling to host me. See you soon. He just couldn't stop. I even thought I may just let him talk until the telephon is out of minutes, so I don't need think about if I should tell other people my cell phone number. Tanner and Laura came to pick me. Christ was still talking, basically subject was to ask my plan in Chicago and after Chicago. man is really powerful, this Chris made my heart broken, my head big. even I did not lose my temperament until hang off the phone. Laura is beautiful lady, I am her first couch suffer, she is excited about that. She cannot wait to hitch hike whole world. Both Tanner and Laura have never hitch hiked. so they were like to listen my experience. When we came back home, I got a email from Chris. He said he think I have not enough plan. So he is not able to host me. Now I have no host in Chicago on Wednesday and Thursday.My plan was to stay in his home two nights, that's enough for him to know. But he sounded want to know my whole life plan, not only, he need my plan is "enough". If he think my plan is not enough, he wil cancel his hosting plan. Read this email, I felt I finally can take breath : I am done with this person. That felling is same as divorce. Years ago, When I got the email from my niece Xiaowei, she said her husband wanted to divorce. I felt my heart released from a big tight burden. I stayed at their home 50 days before I came to the US. There were full of dark clouds coving this home. I felt I couldn't breath. I worried Xiaowei would die or get mental illness. Because she was already crazy. I thought many times to suggest them to divorce. But they both thought they love each other deeply. That might be true. But when love became too heave, we need release it. Chris has too high expectation for his couch suffer. From beginning he had big Interesting for me. That love is too heave , it need to be released. He is over responsible for his couch suffer. He wants to know your every life story in detail before he is able to decide to host you for two nights. Now i have no any hosts in Chicago. That's ok. I will not ran in naked in Chicago. God's love covers me always. Thank God!