July 4th, Bloomington IL

July 4th, Bloomington IL Tim got up very early, when I opened my eyes , I saw he already dressed up. I got up to hug him for goodbye , even we did last evening. G Tim left to work. I cleaned up my stuff and left the house at 7:30am. Mark gave me a ride to the 39 south entrance. It is a good spot. Joe with his big dog Brown Sugar drove me to another town. He bought me breakfast in MacDonald. My third driver was a lady name Beth . She was going to San Luis to see her family. She drove me until the door of Chris' home. It his is a hotel, I went inside, I saw exactly Chris siting at the table using computer. I recognized this was Christ. Before I came, I looked at his photos , tried to remember his looking. I took the bag out of car, thanked Beth. Beth worried about me, why this person lives in hotel.i have never had bad experience on couchsuffing, Christ traveled a lot, I certainly trust him. We went out to see town , eat sandwich Jill and John in Normal. He showed me the company farmer insurance. he works there. We went back , he was tinkling dinner , we decided to buy beef to BBQ . So went out again , to special place , they sell fresh beef. Went back home , put beef in fridger , and then he thought of another thing : we need charter . We went to wal mart to buy a box if charter and some plates. we went to lake, that was long drive . We saw the lake , many boats. But not for swimming. He said its wrong place. But we could not find right place. So we drove back. After a break , we started to cook. The weather was hot , the flam is burning . Chris's whole face is weat. He said we need the chater tune into white , and then put the beef. I worried if we wait too long , all fire will be gone. Finally Chris put one piepce of beef on the grill. He said that's for me , because I need "well done " , he eat " rare cooked" . Later he added another piece beef on grill, But the the charts did not work out. The fire was gone before the chatter tuned white. Chris tried to blow air with mouth, and then we found some dried little beaches , he used litter to start them to make fire. But the chatter just couldn't resurrection. Family we decided finish this project. We will think to eat something else as dinner. We took beef in room, Chris started to eat, I tried a a little piece it was good , but I could not eat more , that almost raw for me. I gave my piece to Christ, he said for him, that's cooked enough. Chris show me the pictures on computer , he traveled by bike in US 10 months two years ago, he biked many counties . I saw his bike in his room, he told me the functions . He fell yesterday from bike , there were fresh wound in his hand and leg . Evening when to see fireworks. Both there were fireworks in Bloomington and Normal, Christ asked me where I want to go, I said bloomington, because I like this name better than Normal . It was hard to looking for parking place. We are luck to close enough to watch the fireworks. They absolutely beautiful. I saw fireworks with Joe and Erin in Madison. That's pretty far. Tonight we are so close. I was so happy to see fireworks in July 4th night with Chris. Certainly Chris this name has special meaning , it always reminds me of Christopher, a man holding my heart. The moon was a big yellow plate. It was rising and getting brighter. July 4th , full moon, Chris, I felt life is amazing beautiful and touching my heart. Chris thought i did'nt not eat enough, we drove through Wendy's to buy some hanberger and fries. I checked the iPod, a email from Sean:"i miss you a lot today. I want a hug...me." I wanted to cry, I am far away from my husband, he is already 71 years old, I don't want him to suffer missing me. But what I can do? Ecxept email and telphone him, should I come back home by airplane ? Or I continue my journey until "well done" ? I could not sleep almost whole night. I and Chris are in same room . But something between us, he said" I can't do anything because you are married. " Some thing is too difficult to explain or understand. Something I just don't know . Sometimes I just want to cry... July. 4th, last years was in parade as lady liberty. I myself made the custom . Used quilt cover . Spent a night. This I'd the first independence day for me as American citizen . We had party with my coast getaway coworkers , tonight I with my handsome host watch fireworks . Chris is very beautiful, his voice is special .great treat for ears, his smile is same as a blooming flower.He is fast for everything , he drove fast , he type computer fast , I love to his fast.