August 8 , Trenton , NJ

August 8 , Trenton , NJ I almost everyday could not reach my planed destination. R My old driver offered me to " get a room" after he knew I have no host tonight. I said thank you for your generosity. But he said I wanted to sleep in same bed. He is old , I have one in my home, That 's enough. I have no any Interest in more old men. He is short, his voice is very skinny. In physically I have no Interest to share bed with this person. He pat me some places from time to time." Don't do that." " are you scared?I will not hurt you." I was not scared , but I did not like he did that on me. I told him , you give a ride That reminded me James , who offered $50 for " massage " in Providence. I promised like a try and put my hands on his shoulders to show him that I know what is massage. If my this old driver gave same offer, I think I will immediately turn down . If he offered $500 an hour, I might think to take this job. I an not meaning extending massage. Our eyes love beauty. Eve received Serpen's suggestion because she saw the apple is beautiful. It might be tasty to eat. I don't believe women love older men , I don't believe men love older women. I am 45 years old , I know i certainly cannot win in beauty campareing young women. I have already thank God some one would like to stop car for me and picked me up. I have already thank those who wanted to have sex with me because they think I am beautiful healthy enough for doing sex. If my looking same as my this old driver , perhaps even I offered to "get a room" to some men, they would say "No" , same as I did. This world is a balance about beauty and money. I am same as Eve, my eyes love beauty , my heart is weak to temptation. After I said "No" , he reponded " I saved money" He is smart man. He know how comfort his own heart. So he delete the lunch and room . He was going to casino, after short distance , He dropped me out. Another old man gave me shirt ride. I was in famine. So I went a restraint and had a big meal. Myself paid. This is east coast. Not easy to get " free lunch " After big lunch, I keep going my way . I got a ride from another old man. His name is Bruce.he drove me Trenton. We went to good will to shop , I did not find backpack , but Bruce Took off a belt, from another bag . I spent $1 bought it. Bruce put it in my bag , made it into I can carry it on my back . You are engineer. I am engineer . Two engineers . We well know how to do. Bruce dropped me downtown. I looked round and to see the river. When I checked the email , I got respond. A Couchsurfing. Homeless shelter, street , I will have a home to accept me. Carsha from Poland , 5 years older tha n the boy , 10 o'clock come back . We wait for dinner , cook at 9:30 . Wash dishes , she did not do anything .