August 25 Burke county ,

August 25 Burke county , Last night I talked to Stanley about my leaving . Our decision was that I will leave with him at 4 am . So he will wake me up at 3:30. When it gets light , he will drop me at 40 west entrance. I wake up before 3:30am, it was pouring down raining. I thought I don't want to go out. I may wait until 10 or 11 , Stanley come home to pick me. Stanley did not come to woke me up. I thought he might did not get up so early because of the rain , he might change the plan, . He might forgot about me. He might think I can't leave that early because of the rain . I lay on bed until 8 am, I went downstair to check if Stanley was at home. His bedroom was empty. He was not at kitchen or office either. I was sure he went to work . I called his cell phone . He said it was pouring down at that time. So he did not wake me up. He will come back at 10:30. He is such nice person. But he told me two times " my heart is too hard." that made me laugh, he said his two wives told him that. If his heart is too hard , how he could stop to give me ride? The place where he picked me was almost extremely bad spot for hitchhiking. But he stopped for me. And offered me lunch and shower, if I wanted to keep going , he would drive me back to 40. If I wanted to stay , I could work for him. I think he has very tender heart. He raises 7 kids by himself. He cooks every night. And today he started to work at 4 am, he did not wake me up as we planed. Because of rain. I guessed He thought to let me sleep more and leave at 10:30. who can say this man's heart is too hard? But he was cursed by two women's mouths. These two women were his beloved wives. When I was in Raleigh, the first evening I and Adie went to a coffee shop to meet his friends. During our talking, I had such words sharing with new friends : women should not judge men, some men maybe really bad, but let God judge. Women are too small to do that. Some men over respect women's judgement, and that sentences are exactly curses for their lives. It was ten years Stanley could not break out this curse. Until a hitchhiker got in his car, a housekeeper came into his home. That reminded me the man Gorgey in Richmond who told me his life story , and then I told him " forgive" , he gave me $70. I make money not only by flute, or by massage, I make money by God, God is Love. Nothing is more powerful than love. For example , my flute is " penny" whistle, my "massage" is $50 that James offered in providence . But " forgive" , God's grace , is $70, plus a hamburger as lunch. I remembered one time I hitch hiked back home from Safeway at evening after work , when the car arrived my gate, the driver told me " you changed my life ." I know I can't change his life, but I know God can! God did on me, He can do on him and you. Don't Let your mouth be curse to your beloved one. Don't judge men.they are beloved by God, they are bigger we are. I am just a woman , a rib. Thank God for letting me know that. That is a very big wisdom. Stanley came back. He wrote a $80 check for my two day 's work. This is the first Check i got during my 4 months trip.It does not matter how much I get , all are blessings for my journey. And then we left home. Along the road to 40 entrance , he told me two things. At the beginning , " I need a wife. " in fact I was very happy to hear that . It is 10 years he has been being a single father. He concepts himself " my heart is too hard " because two women told him that. so he thought he should not get marriage. Now he thinks he needs a wife after I stayed at his home two days. Those who helped me on the road are my blessings , I hope I am their blessing too. May what I said and what I did left some beauty some kindness in their hearts. At the end , Before I got out car, Stanley had a request for me: " do you have my card? " " yes , i have" " if you know someone can clean house , can be a lover, you introduce to me. " " you mean to make sex? That, I'm not sure. I am married." " not you. Someone else". " I hope you marry a wife, I pray for you! " I got out of car. I indeed prayed for Stanley , may God give him a good wife a good helper, even he is strong enough to raise 7 kids, he has a beautiful big house, he also has house in Wilmington , he has a 50 feet boat on coast, he still needs to share love with a woman . Jesus doesn't need a wife, but Stanley is a man, he needs. These are two results after I stayed at his home two days: he needs a wife, or he wants a housekeeper lover. My next driver was a lady with her son and a big dog as passengers. her name is Sarah, She drove her son Jack to work , she introduced her son as a "tattoo artist," his arms are full of tattoo . The patterns are pretty horrible, kulou, . I did not have feeling of art . That 's ok, I consider myself as open minded person, especially for young generation, they can be creative as they can be. After dropping off Jack , Sarah continued to drive me. While we were talking, I said I hope I can get longer ride, big truck always can go far distance. I saw Sarah looked for something, and then she had a piece of paper and a red mark pen in her hands. She wrote while driving : NEED A RIDE , WEST. I thought she needs a ride ? Or she wrote that for me? This was not the issue. The special thing is that she let me hold the paper to window , to show the driver of the big truck running beside our car. This was amazing thought! She tried to hitch hike her neighbor while she herself was running on freeway. She saw I could not do well, so she took the paper back and hold it out of window in her left hand, her right hand was on wheel. Because there was a big truck beside her on left , she think it was going to Tennessee. I guessed she saw the truck license is Tennessee. But the wind was too strong while the car running at 60 mph. She could not hold it flat. Finally she gave up the idea. I think she is the most amazing hitchhiker in world I have even seen or heard. After Sarah dropped me off, I was lucky to get a good ride. His name is Herb, he was going to Lexington, so I got a 80 miles ride and $40 donation. He said " you are such style person, who let people cannot forget. " you used a word I did not understand , so he explained it in above words. My Next driver has many celery in car, I really like the smell. I was in famine , I looked in bag and took out cookie to eat. He drive through at bergerking , bought 2 double whooper for me. I thought he might misunderstood my english. He asked me what I like , I like everything , finally I said I want no 3 , he suggest no 2 , because he likes doule whooper . I agreed with him, I said "buy 2." When I got the bag , there were 2 big hamburgers inside. So I think he did not let me choose 3, instead , he suggest me to choose 2, it might be because he thought 3 hamburgers are too much for me to eat and too much cost for him to spend. Hamburger and onion rings saved me from famine. After an hour waiting. My next driver came, his name is Francis , a Mexican, he has same habit as those i met. I guessed he is younger than me, but he did not want this old woman scare him away, he said he is same as my age. very high presentage of Mexican drivers want sex , i don't know if latino have much high energy than white or they have misunderstanding in their culture to think hitchhikers are related sex sellers. I know they are safe, but I am tired of the conversation about this subject with them.And None of them is handsome as my host Michael in Richmond. Francis droped me at trcory . I spent another long wait at this good spot. He is sweet person, when I got in car, he took my hand gave it a big kiss, when I got out car , I hold me tightly gave me a big hug, and two boxes food, fried chicken and fried potatoes. They just had party , left over food. His kiss and hug are certainly not same as Francis 's thought. I could felt his bug had too much concerning : he hate to leave me alone on road, but he cant drive me further or with me in his whole life. This is reality. He said " I pray for you." when he finally released me from his arms. " I pray for you!" I can feel How much love in this simple sentence. He had no choice , this is only thing he can do after he release me. Heavenly father , this is the best thing he can do for me! Thank you, Luke . I kept going my way. A lady drove toward me and stopped,from the car's behavior , I know the owner will tell me her own philosophy instead give me a ride. She spoke to me, through rolling down window: are you ok? Do you have problems? Too dangerous, two hitchhikers were killed ... There were 2 or 3 old men in her car, they are all serous faces, " it was me who pressed dangerousness into their nervous, so their faces became such style. I am lucky that my mind my heart and even my eyes alway follow young beautiful people. They have never pressed " dangerousness" into my body. I thought her tender heart would guide her generosity, she would give me money to let me take bus or let me sleep hotel. But she just told me a horrible story and drove away.I even doubt that was her concerning or she just wanted to scare me at such time the day was getting dark. I have to admit, such persons are my least favorite ones. A policewoman passed by away. A policeman came. He stopped. I was ready for all questions. One question he asked is how long you have done it. " about 7000 miles " this number made his face changed , his mouth send a whistle. I like that. I asked where is downtown, told him I need to look for a place to sleep. He started to check me, asked me about weapon : knife , gun, .. I told him I just take God with me, no any weapon is more powerful than love. He check my bag, my body, my pants pocket, you have more money than I do, That 's my driver herbt gave me $40. I put off shoes , he asked what kind my belt, I took out my belt from pants. He even hold me from my back to check I hide gun inside cloth. I even thought he might just want to touch me. I thought this job belongs to female police officer . Here only himself , no female police, so he just did it , that 's ok. He even mentioned my underwear, he doubt I hide gun in underwear, I was already ready to put off pants to show him how pure I am: no gun. I am a woman . Lucky he did not ask me to put off pants. He let me get in car , sit in back seat. I was happy i will have a place to sleep tonight. He drove me to the shelter. He went to door, talk with the lady , and then came Let me out of car. He was together with me went in house, told the lady " I checked , she has no gun" the lady name Heather. She is black. She is beautiful, she is nice. Policeman had done his job about me, delivered me to shelter, gave me to Heather, he told me , put money inside , someone steal. I said thanks to him, though may should not shake hands, because he is police man , he is on duty. But he hugged me tightly, "I pray for you and your husband" . My God ! How much love in the world, I received overflow. He even remembered I said my husband might be ill, so I go home. " hope your husband well." There is a name card on his uniform, I think his name is white something. I thought of the movie " Crash" , a policeman checked a black lady, touched her legs, she felt ,. When she happened a car accident , this same policeman saved her life from disaster. We all have our weakness, we all are in God's love, His love flows between us. So you and I can love each other. White told me his head will have a operation , I pray God will heal him completely. He is good police officer. As you know, that policewoman passed by away , she even did not " see " me. After shower, Heather reheat my hamberger in microwave, and gave me a bottle of milk, I ate until full. The room is very nice , there two single beds ,Same as school dormitory. This is house same as family house another girl was sleeping. After she wake up, we had short talk, her name is Lisa , she came here today. I borrowed her cellphone , called Sean , I wanted to know if he is getting better. I left message . Thank God for sheltering me tonight. Today I had 7 drivers , may God bless all of them.