August 11, Philadelphia , 3rd night,

August 11, Philadelphia , 3rd night, Today was Saturday, pat does not need go to work, so morning I felt relaxable. After he wake up, he walked in naked , he sat beside , I did not know where my eyes should looked at. Finally I said " you are naked ." If fact we talked pretty good , I am "used " to his naked and weird. Anything once you become "used " , it will be not much different felling. Our physical and our mind both can be used something. For example , we wear underwear, we did not feel it all the time. Otherwise we will be crazy. I even felt his looking is not too bad, his mind is ok too. I left his home at 10 am, Pat helped me to take bag to down stair , he lives in 3rd floor. We hugged each other as goodbye. I walked to 76 west entrance . Mike picked me up drive me to the Fresnel 's address . I press the bell and knocked the door, no one was at home. Mike waited for me , he let me knocked harder, might they didn't hear , I tried . Mike help me called the telephone, Fresnel send to me . It say out of service . Mike wrote his telephone to me, in case I need help. Mike left. I walked to the shopping center it is about a mile away , when mike drive me here, we passed it. In Macdalnsl I sent a note to Fresnel, told him I have been his home, I will came back later . I play flute in serval store . Made 44doallors. Mike gave me 8 dollars . About 5pm, It started to rain. I went inside store . After rain , I stared to walk to Fresnel 's home. I thought they will come back home at this time. When I arrived at the door, I found the note I left was still there. I waited a while, it was getting 7pm, I knocked the neighbor 's door, after long time a man went out , asked " are you lost?" I asked about Brigitte, he said they went to church. They will come back at 7pm. I saw it was already close to 7pm. So I just waited at the steps. It was 7:30, I knocked the neighbor door , never get respond. I waited in the back yard, knocked the neighbor 's door wanted to ask what church she went , I may go there to look for her. But never get respond . It was 8:30pm, it was raining. I saw a man walking , I borrowed his telphone to call Mike, who gave me ride to here today. I wanted to ask him if he can offer me a place to stay for tonight. The telphone went into message. I found a good spot , it was same or samilar my bedroom in New York city. It is the door of church. There is porch , so I can hide from rain. It is higher than ground, so rain water will not flood me. There is street lights and church light. I still did not give hope , I went back to check Brigitte 's home and waited until 9:30pm. I write another note hanged it on the door, told them I will be at the door of church one block away. When they come back , they may go there look for me. This is my bedroom in Philadelphia. I kneed down lift a prayer : may God keep me in safe, give courage and strength. I hanged the bag belt round my arm and head, incase keep it with me. While I was typing iPod, a man flishlight to me and spoke something. I know that must be policeman. After a while, he came back, flishlight on my face, he came to me," do you speak English, are you homeless ? " " I sat up , looked for eyeglasses . " I speak english. " but I don't know how to answer his second question , I don't know I am homeless or not? I told him I supposed to have a place to stay, but there is not at home. " do you go this church ?" " I am traveling, I am from California. " " I sleep at church , because I think God protect me. " " God protect you! Someone would shoot gun at your face. It will start to rain, you decide where you sleep ." I left such words while he walked away. I watched his back, noticed he is very handsome. You may laugh that in this middle night, heavy cloudy , I sleep on street by myself , checked by policeman , in such condition I still had extra mind to enjoy seeing his beautiful build from back. He is nice treat comparing my host 's nightmare. In fact , policeman ' visiting let me feel much better, I felt safer and my heart felt much more comfortable than before. I shouted to his back " pray for me!" Heavenly father, please protect me! give a peaceful night. I prayed in Jesus name! Amen!