2008年11月14日星期五

132, 想入非非 fantasy

不知道你是天使还是魔鬼 do not know if you are an angel or a devil
这无所谓 it does not matter
不能抗拒的是你的美丽占据了我所有的思维 that can not resist is your beauty occupied my all thinkings
飘来飘去叫我想入非非 floating to-and-fro make me indulge in fantasy
想与你亲密接触 want to contact close with you
抚摸你的心跳 呼吸你的呼吸 touch your heart, breathe your breath
当你的秋波澎湃成洪水 when your leer surges into flood
我沉溺 沉溺 坠落到底 i sink,sink, fall to the bottom
为什么你是如此的遥不可及 why are you so far away
伸出手臂拥抱你 extend my arms to embrace you
我不能停止想入非非 i can not stop fantasy
在想象中沉醉 be intoxicated in the imagination
想象穿越了所有的风雨 imagination went through all wind and rain
想象在广州下起了雪 雪花大如席 imagination snows in Guangzhou, snowflakes are bigger than mats
多么神奇 没有了时空 how mystical, time and space disappeared
只有我在洪水中沉溺 沉溺 沉溺 坠落到底 only me in flood sink, sink, fall to the bottom

2008年11月12日星期三

133, 别怪我不是玫瑰 do not blame i am not a rose

野草和苦艾生长在一起 weed and wormwood grow together
我和你是天生一对 i and you are inborn being a couple
我不是天使也不是魔鬼 i am not an angel nor devil
别怪我不是玫瑰 do not blame i am not a rose

我没有芳香也没有硬刺 i have no fragrance nor hard thorn
我本来是苦艾一枝 i am a branch of wormwood
你是棵野草遍地里都是 you are a weed everywhere
别怪不会做诗 do not blame i am not a rose

野草和苦艾生长在一起 weed and wormwood grow together
我和你是天生一对 i and you are inborn being a couple
如果你是一棵野草 if you are a weed
别怪我不是玫瑰 do not blame i am not a rose

134, 你是我爱情的主人 you are the master of my love

你粗暴地掠走了我的心 you brutally plunder my heart
我甚至来不及羞怯 i even have no time to be shy
你从没表白爱的誓言 you never declare love oath
我却没怀疑你的决心 i did not doubt your decision
啊,你是我爱情的主人 ah, you are the master of my love
我只能千依百顺 i have to obey completely
我爱情的主人 the master of my love
如果你要 if you want
我愿给你我的全部 i would like to give you my all
纯洁如莲花的嘴唇 lips as pure as lotus
我的肉体我的灵魂 my body, my soul

2008年11月11日星期二

135, 潦倒的心 a dispirited heart

少年人的心啊潦倒 a young boy's heart is dispirited
为那想象中爱人儿的美妙 for the beauty of his imaginational lover
可爱的人儿她羞掩面纱 the beloved she covers a veil
秋水波光在纱巾后面闪耀 limpid eyes shine behind the back of veil
蝉翼的纱巾怎样包得住 how can the veil as cicada wings conceal
秋水明媚汇成潮 the bright autumn waters converge into tidewater

啊 Ah
少年人的心啊为此潦倒 the young boy's heart is dispirited for this
美妙的爱情把心儿缠绕 the wonderful love enwinds my heart
纱巾在秋水里漂 the veil floats in the autumn water
秋水把少年人的心淹没了 the autumn water drown the young boy's heart

136, 秋风中的落叶 a leaf in autumn wind

秋风中的落叶 a leaf in autumn wind
它在飞 向东向西 向南向北 it is flying, to east, to west, to north, to south
终于以自身的重力落向大地 finally to the earth because of self-gravity

一个流浪的人儿 a stray man
可别问他去到哪里 do not ask where he will go
他就象那落叶 he is like that leaf
乘着秋风和重力寻找目的 ride autumn wind and gravity to find its aim

秋风中的落叶 a leaf in autumn wind
它来自 哪一棵树 哪段枝杆 from which tree and which branch it came
本就是风雨寒霜不堪回忆 this memory is like cold frost that can't bear

一个流浪的人儿 a stray man
可别问他家乡故里 do not ask where is his hometown
他不忍回头看 he can not look back
心儿还疼 怕又浸别时泪 his heart is still painful , fear to soak the farewel ltears again

137, 恩格贝的清泉 Engebei's fountain

我在恩格贝找到了清泉 i found fountain in Engebei
它汩汩淌出滚烫沙滩 it gurgled out of the hot desert
多清澈多甘甜 clear and sweet
滋润到我心田 moistened my heart

我在恩格贝遇见了朵兰 i met Duolan in Engebei
她的眼睛是大漠清泉 her eyes are fountain in desert
恩格贝的清泉 Engebei's fountain
滋润到我心田 moistened my heart

啊 恩格贝的清泉 o Engebei's fountain
装满我的水壶 filled my kettle
她的两眼秋波 the leers of her two eyes
装满我的心坎 filled my heart

138, 蔚蓝的湖 a blue lake

有一片蔚蓝的湖 a blue lake
在黑色森林里多么神奇 in the black forest, how magic
她是我心上人的眼睛 she is the eyes of my lover
美丽无人比 her beauty is beyond compare

这一片蔚蓝的湖 this blue lake
她宽阔深无底 藏着秘密 she is broad and deep, hides secrets
召引多少年轻的勇士 calls so many young warriors
一去不能回 go and never return

啊,黑森林里蔚蓝的湖 Ah, the blue lake in the black forest,
她是我心上人的眼睛 she is the eyes of my lover
美丽无人比 her beauty is beyond compare
我要去扬帆 I am going to sail
情愿葬身在湖底 i would rather die in the lakebed

139, 湖水摇荡着芦苇 the water dangles reed

湖水摇荡着芦苇 the water dangles reed
静静地睡着了 sleep quietly
芦苇花也睡了reed catkins also sleep
你依偎在我的怀抱 you are in my arms
静静地睡着了 sleep quietly
我的心儿醉了 my heart is drunk

月亮吻着芦苇花 the moon kisses reed catkins
把芳香四处飘 take fragrance to everywhere
把湖水染香了 dye the lake aromatic
芦苇花落在我的怀抱 reed catkins fall in my arms
落在你的眉梢 fall on the tips of your eyebrows
把湖水弄醒了 wake up the lake

140, 嘎玛卓玛 Gama Zhuoma

星星闪烁在夜空里 stars twinkle in the night sky
一颗一颗全都藏着秘密 each hides secret
是你闪动的黑眼睛我读不懂的谜语 are your blinking black eyes,, the riddle i can not understand ?
嘎玛卓玛,我的妹妹 Gama Zhuoma, my sister
心中的女神,那最明亮的星可是你? the goddess in my heart, is the brightest star you ?

拉朴楞寺转经道上 on the road of turning the prayer buckets around Lapuleng temple
虔诚的信徒在诉说心语 devout believers tell their hearts
剪掉美丽的发辫袈裟代替了彩衣 cut off the beautiful braid , cassock instead of colorful clothes
嘎玛卓玛,我的妹妹 Gama zhuoma, my sister
心中的女神,那最遥远的星可是你? the goddess in my heart, is the most distant star you?

牧歌回荡在桑科草原 pastoral songs reverberate in Sangke grassland
你的笑容如酒如蜜我已醉 your smile is like honey and wine, i have drunk
为何不见草原上那最美丽的格桑花 why did not see the most beautiful Gesang flowers on the grassland?
嘎玛卓玛,我的妹妹 Gama Zhuoma, my sister
心中的女神,哪一颗星才是你? the goddess in my heart, which star is you ?

嘎玛卓玛,美丽的花 Gama Zhuoma, beautiful flower
心中的女神,天上的星啊 the goddess in my heart, the star in the sky
哪一颗星是嘎玛卓玛?which star is Gama Zhuoma ?

2008年11月10日星期一

141, 风儿吹乱了你的长发 wind blows your hair disorder

风儿吹乱了你的长发 wind blows your hair disorder
彩裙舞起了轻纱 colorful skirt is flying voile
姑娘她羞达达 girl is shy
脸庞就象初开的春花 her face is like a spring flower

就在风儿吹来的刹那 on the moment when wind blows
吹开了我的心花 open my heart
姑娘啊美丽无瑕 o girl , beautiful and flawless
青春的藤攀上花架 vine of youth climbed the flower frame

总记得你端庄优雅 i remember you are dignified and elegant
长发不起飞花 long hairs are not flying
姑娘啊就象一幅画 o girl , is like a painting
宁静秀美我遥望着她 quiet and beautiful , i look at her in distance

就在风儿吹来的刹那 on the moment when wind blows
吹乱了你的长发 blows your hair disorder
你乘着彩裙的云 you ride the clouds of colorful skirt
从那画中飘下 float out of the painting

142, 月牙a crescent moon

你笑起来的时候 when you smile
眼睛象月牙 your eyes look like crescent moons
弯又弯放光华 curve and bright
睫毛眨一眨,会说话 eyelash blink, can speak

你笑起来的时候 when you smile
小嘴象月牙 mouth is like a crescent moon
酒窝儿两边挂 dimples hang on both sides
翘又翘 不说话 the corners of mouth rise, do not speak

你笑起来的时候 when you smile
美丽就象一朵花 beautiful as a flower
因为你的眼睛象月牙,会说话 because your eyes are like crescent moons, can speak
因为你的小嘴象月牙,不说话 because your mouth is like a crescent moon, do not speak

143, 如果我是小鸟 if i was a bird

如果我是小鸟 if i was a bird
就落在你肩头 i would like stay on your shoulder
无论你走到哪里 no matter where you go
我都把你深情守候 i will be together with you

如果我是小鸟 if i was a bird
我决不惧怕老鹰 i never fear eagle
为了你的爱情 for your love
我宁可失掉生命 i would rather lose my life

如果我是小鸟 if i was a bird
如果小鸟失掉生命 if the bird lost its life
就落在你的脚边 it would like drop at your feet
爱你是我死也不变的忠诚 loving you that is my loyalty even to death

144, 我问我自己 I ask myself

我问我自己 I ask myself
青春哪里去了 where is Youth gone
颤动的皱纹说 the trembling wrinkles said :
青春要流去 Youth wants to flow away
我们织成网堆成堆也拦不回 we cannot stop it even though we weave into a net and stacks into a pile

我问我自己 I ask myself
爱情哪里去了 Where is the love gone
空荡荡的心儿说 empty heart said
我锁住了心门 她也能逃得无踪迹 it can escape without trace even though i locked the door of heart

我问我自己 i ask myself
我还有什么 what do i still have
青春在树林里说 youth in the woods said
岁月变成树干坚不可摧 years changed into the impregnable trunks

我问我自己 i ask myself
我还有什么 what do i still have
爱情在花园里说 love in the garden said
生命本身就永远是玫瑰 life itself is always rose

145, 了望前方 look forward

在我少年的时候 in my childhood
我总爱了望前方 i always looked forward
眼睛放射光芒 my eyes shone light
探询人生的方向 explored the life direction
大人们都赞美我的眼睛 the people praised my eyes
多么美丽明亮 how beautiful and bright

当我长成大姑娘 When I grew into a girl
我总爱低头默想 I always bowed head in meditation
眼前一片迷茫 the perplexed before my eyes
不知走向何方 I do not know where i go
青年们都赞美我的眼睛 Youth praised my eyes
多么温柔的目光 waht gentle sight

当花儿谢了的晚上 on the night when flowers faded
当秋霜铺了满窗 When the windows were covered with frost in autumn
我不再了望前方 I didn't look forward any more
也不低头默想 didn't bow head in meditation either
我常闭上眼睛 I often close my eyes
心中一片空灵 my heart is empty

146, 莲的心事 lotus'concerns

池塘里开满了莲花 a pond is full of lotus
金色的蕊藏满了心事 the golden pistil hides concerns
那心事是少女的心事 that are a girl's concerns

塘边的少女悄悄告诉莲花 the girl beside pond tells quietly the lotus :
爱情啊已经在心中发芽 love has germinated in my heart
会长成洁白美丽的莲花 will grow into a beautiful white lotus

花瓣挺不住心事的重压 the petals cannot bear the weight of concerns
轻风中飘然落下 fell lightly in breeze
莲的心事变成了莲子 lotus' concerns became seeds
种莲的小阿哥采走了它 the boy who plants lotus picked it up

147, 玫瑰的心愿rose's wish

玫瑰有一个心愿 rose has a wish
是个小小的心愿 it is a small wish
愿天下人都相爱 wish people under the sun love each other
世界没有仇恨 there is no hatred in the world
愿相爱的人都真心 wish all people in love are sincere
世界充满温暖 the world is full of warmth

玫瑰有个心愿 rose has a wish
是个小小的心愿 it is a small wish
在玫瑰家园里面 in the rose's family
一代一代相传不变 transit it unchangeably from generation to generation
到如今也没能实现 never comes true
多么令人悲伤遗憾 how sad and regret

148, 美丽的加来拉 beautiful Jiamila

美丽的加来拉 住在天山脚下 beautiful Jiamila lives at the foot of Tianshan mountain
她纯洁的心灵象水晶的冰山 her pure heart is like the crystal ice mountain
她迷人的笑容象冰山上的雪莲花 her charming smile is like snow saussurea on ice mountain

啊 加来拉 美丽的加来拉 o, Jiamila , beautiful Jiamila
当我离开家乡的时候 when i left hometown
日日夜夜把你牵挂 worry about you day and night
看不见你天仙的舞姿 can not see your fairy dance
我的眼里迷漫了风沙 my eyes are hazy by the sand blown by wind

啊 加来拉 美丽的加来拉 o, Jiamila , beautiful Jiamila
当我离开家乡的时候 when i left hometown
你这戈壁的清泉水 you, desert fountain
谁为你弹琴歌唱 Who play harp and sing for you
你这纯洁美丽的雪莲花 you, pure and beautiful snow saussurea

2008年11月9日星期日

149, 迷人的眼睛 charming eyes

我走过茫茫戈壁 i went through vast desert
见到了美丽的巴哈尔古丽 saw the beautiful Baharguli
她有一双迷人的眼睛 she has a pair of charming eyes
两弘深潭海洋般神秘 mystical as two pools

我走过茫茫戈壁 i went through vast desert
两弘深潭是滋润心田的渠水 two pools are the water moistening my heart
那是一双迷人的眼睛 that are a pair of charming eyes
她的一瞥我从没忘记 i never forget her glimpse

那双眼睛多么富有魅力 what attractive your eyes are
早已将我的魂魄摄去 my soul had already been taken out
只要她能投来深情一瞥 as long as she give me a glance with love
拿去我的心和财产我也愿意 even take away my heart and property i am still glad

150, 莲的芬芳 Lotus fragrance

你的笑容是莲的芬芳 your smile is the lotus fragrance
搓成弦拴在我的心上 slub into string to tie on my heart
抚琴的人儿哟 the person who plays harp
可别把莲的心事 don't enjoy the lotus' concern
当成佛国仙乐欣赏 as the music of Buddha realm
莲子的苦心只为你一人品尝 the bitter heart of the lotus seeds is only for you to taste

2008年11月8日星期六

151, 我托清风把莲香捎给你 i entrust the lotus fragrance to the cool breeze to take to you

我是托了清风的,i have entrusted the cool breeze
托她把莲香捎给你,with taking the lotus fragrance to you
你可收到了这芳醇的心意 did you receive this mellow gift?
我去看了许多回信箱, I checked the mail box many times
没找见你藏进去的消息。didn't find the news from you
不是我心急,it is not I am impatient
是怕清风因了与树林的亲昵, i am afraid of the intimacy beween the cool breeze and woods
鸟儿就会把秘密歌唱出去…… birds will sing the secret out

152, 邱比特把箭射入了阿波罗的心 Cupid shot an arrow into Apollo's heart

邱比特把箭射入了阿波罗的心 Cupid shot an arrow into Apollo's heart
于是 崎岖的大地上 and then the rugged land
长满月桂树林 covered with laurels

153, 美丽的Mendocino 海湾 beautiful Mendocino gulf

美丽的Mendocino 海湾 beautiful Mendocino gulf
是一幅浅蓝的绸缎 is a light blue satin
轻柔地铺展 spreads gently
铺展开来 spreads
直到那悠远的淡蓝的天边 as far as the remote and light blue horizon

洁白的浪花开放在洁白的细沙上 white waves blosom on the silver sand
是Mendocino 洁白的裙边 is Mendocino's white skirt lace
就象金发少女的笑 as the blond girl's smile
那么活泼好看 so lively and so charming

美丽的Mendocino beautiful Mendocino
我来了 从此你拥有了棕色皮肤的爱人 i come, hence you have a brown skin lover

107, 我的爱人给了我一双眼睛 my lover gave me a pair of eyes

我的爱人给了我一双眼睛 my lover gave me a pair of eyes
然后 给了我一万种颜色 and then He gave me 10,000 kinds of colors
又把一万种芬芳掺进了空气 and mix 10,000 kinds of fragrance into air
供给我呼吸 for me to breathe

撒旦、魔鬼和蛇的智慧 the wisdom of Satan,devil and serpent
都是我的爱人送给我的玩具 all are the toys that my lover gave to me

百花如锦 flowers are so beautiful
伊甸园里起了凉风 Garden of Eden beggins a cool breeze
我要去迎接我的爱人 I'm going to meet my lover

106, 四海的水相连 the water of four seas is connected

四海的水相连 the water of four seas is connected
它们原本来自同一个地方 they originally came from the same place
来自世界的起初 from the begining of the world
承载着神的灵 bearing the spirit of God
覆盖着地的混沌 Covering the inanity and chaos of the earth

既然水诞生在光之前 since the water was born before the light did
那么 孕育我生命的母亲 therefor the mother who gestated my life
一定忍受过等待的黑暗 must have endured the darkness of the wait

天父撒下光明的种子 Father in heaven sowed the seeds of light
你怀孕了 you were pregnant
那一颗美丽的单细胞 that beautiful single cell
经历了 through hundreds of millions years
生长成一个蓬勃的春天 grew into a vibrant spring

人说 it is said
水是我的母亲 water is my mother
光是我的父亲 light is my father
亚历山大相信神话 Alexander believes mythes
我为梦想去追寻 i chase my dreams

105, 上帝如此遥远 God is so far away

上帝如此遥远 God is so far away
我想认识上帝 i would like to know God
去到他的住所看看 to visit his home
可他住的如此遥远 but He lives so far away

我坐在夸父的肩上 i sat on the shoulders of Quafoo
与太阳交谈 talk with the sun
可太阳一点也不了解上帝的消息 but the sun does not know the information about God
就像蒙娜丽莎不了解她的父亲 just as Mona Lisa does not know her father

有一天 我在旷野里遇见了撒旦 that day i met Satan in the wilderness
他以爱情的名义对我发誓: he swore in the name of love
上帝根本没有自己的圣殿 God has no His own house
他不过是个寄居者 he is parasite

他就住在你的心里边 He lives in your heart
信不信由你 believe it or not
上帝毁了我的名声 God has ruined my reputation
我毁了爱情的誓言 i destroyed the oath of love

如此残酷 so cruel
无处寄存信念 nowhere store belief
上帝如此遥远 God is so far away

104, 我抬头仰望你 i look up to You

我抬头仰望你 i look up to You
只是证明我的谦卑 just prove that i am humble
因为我可以闭目不看你 because i may close my eyes not to see You
何以证明你的崇高 how do You prove that You are lofty

我抬头仰望你 i look up to You
只是证明我前进的方向 just prove that the direction i go forward
因为我可以转身背对你 because I may turn about and back to You
何以证明你是我的目标 how do You prove that You is my goal

如果盲目和背弃是我的罪 if blindness and leaving are my sins
我犯的罪太深 my sins are very deep
是个不赦的罪人 is the sinner who cannot be absolved
如果我的祷告你能听见 if can You hear my prayers
请放宽时限 please prolong the time limit
还有更多的罪人需要回转 there are more sinners who need to turn around

上天堂的路不只一条 more than one way to heaven
悔罪的比没罪的更能走好你的道 who repent is better to walk Your way than that who no sins
我抬头仰望你 i look up to You
我知道 i know
有一天 我会和你在一起 someday i will be together with You
坐在你的右边 sit on Your right side
解读爱的真理 study the truth of love

103, 神的造物如此丰富 so rich God's Creations are

神的造物如此丰富 so rich God's Creations are
天堂有几重 how many Paradises there are
我不知道你的宝座在哪里 i do not know where Your throne is
因为长久以来 黑夜蒙住了我的眼睛 because the night covered my eyes for long

夜太黑 the night is very dark
连鸽子也找不到我住的地方 even the doves can can not find where I live

我挖掉双眼 i dug out my eyes
用它们燃起两盏灯 ignited them as two lamps
于是 我有了光 so I have light

我找到了去天堂的路 I found the road to the heave
它又宽又阔 it is very wide
路上的人很多 there are many people on the road
我的旅伴都和我一样 my fellow travellers are same as i
失去了眼睛 lost eyes
但我们彼此看得清楚 however, we see clearly each other
也看得见鸽子飞翔的身影 also see the flying doves

在天堂的大门口 at the gate of heaven
蒙娜丽莎看着我笑 Mona Lisa smiles at me
我的手在发抖 my hands tremble

这时 维纳斯走上前 at that time Venus came up
嘭,嘭,嘭 bang, bang, bang
她用火热的心跳 She uses her fiery heartbeats
敲开了天堂的大门 knocked the door of heaven open

102, 我参加化装舞会 i go to a fancy ball

我参加化装舞会 i go to a fancy ball
我发现 我找不到了自己 i found that I can not find my own
也辨认不出谁是谁 cannnot recognize either who is who
我相信不是世界变了样 i believe the world did not change
神说 太阳底下没有新事 God said there is no new thing under the sun
所以 一定是我的视力出了问题 so it can be certainly that my vision has a problem
我的心很急 my heart is urgent

到底是什么问题 what problem it is on earth
世界没有变化还有什么乐趣 what fun does the world have if no change

在神是平常的 the normal for God
在人却是奇迹 for human, it is a miracle

怎么看不到永恒的天国 why did not see the eternal paradise
连盲目的孩子 even the blind child
都找到了你的座椅 find Your seat
我的心很急 my heart is urgent

神说 God said:
眼睛只能做颜色的游戏 eye can only play the color game
要想看见天国 to see the kingdom of heaven
眼睛根本就是没用的东西 eyes are simply useless things
如果你倒出灵魂里的罪恶 if you pour out the evil of your soul
腾出一块干净的地方 vacate a clean place
我现在就住进去 I now live into it
你急我也急 you are urgent ,I am urgent too.

2008年11月6日星期四

101, 他的两片嘴唇互相撞击着 His two lips dash each other

他的两片嘴唇互相撞击着 His two lips dash each other
迸发出激烈的言辞 burst out fierce rhetoric

个头矮的神仙在公众舆论里迷了路 the short gods are lost in public opinions
淹死在唾沫里 drowned in the spittle

我聆听他的教诲 i listen to His teachings
固执地把它当作行为指南 stubbornly think it as my action guides
他的大名主导我的生命路线 His name leads the road of my life

权威来自天上 authority is from the heaven
他是误入歧途的社会的拯救者 He is the savior of the astray world
丰富多彩的辩论没完没了 varied debates are endless
我喜欢他发表见解的腔调 i like the tone He delivers his views

他的嘴唇很薄 带着笑 His lips is thin, and with a smile
我跟着他 越跟越紧 I follow Him , closer and closer

终于 他把比喻的学问给了我 finally He gave me the knowledge about metaphor
从此 我的笔能够描述真理的样子 since then my pen can describes the appearance of the truth

100, 我的眼睛看到了真相 my eyes saw the truth

我的眼睛看到了真相 my eyes saw the truth
冷酷不能拒绝爱的力量 the callous can not refuse the power of love

在自由选择时我误用了真理 i misused the truth when chose freely
飞逝的时光将我背弃 the flying time betrayed me

嘴唇品尝酸味 lips taste sourness
之后 脚不在意走什么路 and then feet do not care the roads to walk

从眼、心到灵魂 from the eyes, heart to soul
中了第一支箭的 甘愿沉沦 that who was hit by the first arrow is willing to sink

我仔细阅读了火与黄金的关系 i carefully read the relationship between fire and gold
所以 迷失于对你的崇拜 so lost in worshiping You

美将我束缚 举起 beauty binds me, lift me
从大地直上天堂 directly to heaven from the earth

99, 我是那个为你旨意效力的人 i am the person who serves Your will

我是那个为你旨意效力的人 i am the person who serves Your will
我想在地上安居下来 i want to settle on the earth
可是你说 这世界不是我的家 but You say this world is not my home

我找不到安息处 i can not find my residence
盼望有人把我扶起来 look for someone to help me
靠他们的经历带我前行 go ahead on their experiences

但你却从不允许 but You do not allow
在你的生活里 in Your life
没有二手的东西 no second-hand things

与你的居所相比 comparing with Your home
地球实在太小 the earth is too small
是的 我应该有一个宽敞的家 yes, i should have big house

我饥饿 我渴慕 我不满足 iam hungry ,i am thirsty, i am not satisfied
我已迈步前去 i have moved forward
我必须得着更多才行 i must get more

你的意念高过我的意念 如同天高过地 Your thought is higher than mine,the sky is higher than the earth
你手里拿着一切事物的钥匙 You hold all keys to everything in Your hands
其中一把是开我的家门的 one of them is for the door of my home

98, 这仅仅是一次旅行 this is just a travel

这仅仅是一次旅行 this is just a travel
在地上 on the earth

我望见你给我预备了一座城 i see a city You prepared for me
在天上 in heaven

我一直在寻找我的家 i have been looking for my home
因为有盼望 所以我的心里存着安静 because of hope, so my heart has peace

清晨 morning
天开了the sky is opened

在天的光中 in the light of sky
我是你最注意的目标 i am the target of your attention

从天来的 that come from the sky
向着天而去 will go to the sky

这是你的次序 this is Your process
我努力明白你话语的结论 i try to understand the conclusion of Your words

你创造 You create
然后安息在创造里 and then rest in the creations

我如此重要 i am so important
因为与你有关连 for i connected with You

在开始的地方 in the beginning
你种下你的次序 You planted Your order

到末了的时候 on the time of the end
它要再生出来 it will be regenerate

我走了一条完整的路 i went through a complete road
终于 我成为你心满意足的作品 i finally become a work satisfying You

97, 我的虚空的躯壳 my empty body

我的虚空的躯壳 my empty body
你已经不再注意 You do not pay attention any more

你对我失去了兴趣 You lost interest in me
我的家也成为荒场 my home became a waste

你离去了 You left
一切不再有意义和目的 all no longer are meaningful and have goals

我的心在沮丧中下沉 my heart sank in frustration
并以这种方式捆绑你的能力 in this way bind Your ability

你柔和谦卑 You are gentle and humble
你想要走一条清洁的路 You want to walk a saintly road

我不明白我到底得到你没有? i do not understand if i obtained You
这正是你最初最终的问题 this is your first issue of the final

天开始震动 the sky shock
这震动将传到全世界 this will spread to the whole world

你站在井边等我 You stand by the well to wait for me
教我源泉的奥秘 teach me the secret of source

你的话比两刃的剑更快 Your word is sharper than a sword
刺入我的灵 并把它剖开 pierce into my spirit and split it

我再不需要每天来打水 i do not need fetch water every day
再不用献千千万万的祭 do not need offer thousands of sacrifices

我穿上细麻衣 i dressed in linen
我被剖开的灵成为与你交通的机关 my split spirit become the organ communicating with You

多么希奇 how unusual
你又和我住在一起 You and i live together again

旧事已过 old things have past
你更新了我 You renew me

终于 我明白了你的境界 i finally understand your realm
我必须回家 i must go home

96, 安静地 quietly

安静地 quietly
我等候在你面前 i wait before You

我的眼睛注视着黑夜 my eyes watch the night
想要寻找你的火柱的光照 look for the light of Your fire pillar

我知道你是谁 i know who you are
那巧手智慧的匠人 that skillful craftsman
已经归入了你的名下 has been included under Your name

你没留下一件事让我决定 You left nothing for me to decide
你说 我只需照你的指引做工 You said i only work at Your guide

商店的总经理太心急 the general manager of the store is impatient
跑到了你的云柱的前头 he went ahead of Your cloud pillar
他做了几笔好生意 he did several good businesses
然后破产 then went bankruptcy

失败和苦难都是你教的功课 all failures and tribulations are the lessons You taught
我停下我自己的行动 i stopped my own actions
跟随你 to follow You

95, 有人要插手你的事情 someone want to intervene in Your things

有人要插手你的事情 someone want to intervene in Your things
照着自己的眼光来估量你的设计 evaluate Your design through his own eyes

我选择敬拜你 i choose to worship You
在你的灵和真理里全身受浸 my whole body is baptised in Your spirit and truth

这是你最初最终的愿望: this is Your first and final wish:
与我住在一起 live together with me

我喜欢夸自己的软弱 i like to boast my own weakness
好叫你的能力覆庇我 so that Your power covers me

你的话代替一切制度 Your words replaces all systems
你的手触摸的 都如此佳美 all that Your hands touch are so beautiful

你从来不休息 You never rest
你是个奥秘 You are a mystery

我等候在你面前 i wait before You
想得着你的指示 want to get Your instructions

不是出于你意的 都将瓦解 what that are not from You will collapse
但愿我不至陷在错误里 i wish not be bogged down in errors

你以你的灵膏我的生命  You anointed my life with Your spirit
如果你要 我乐意 if you want, i will be happy to give

连天也震动了 也可以被挪去  the sky and the earth even can be shaken and moved
长存的 乃是你 the eternal is You

94, 你向我发出召唤 You sent a call to me

你向我发出召唤 You sent a call to me
让我与你同受苦难: let me suffer with you:
做我的精兵 to be my good soldier
为我打 fight for me a good fight

在你的家中 in your home
我曾有不合宜的行为 i had the undesirable behaviors
当我把起初的爱心离弃了 when i abandoned the initial love
我从永远掉进时间里 i fell into time from eternity

你与我同行这么久 it is long time You and i have been walking together
我却不认识你 but i do not know You
我跌倒 i tumbled
因为昏瞎 because of blind

我找不到你永远的目的 i did not find Your eternal aim
直到你开了我的眼睛 until You opened my eyes
所以 在五旬节以前 therefore before the Pentecost
我看见了你灵的定律 i saw the law of Your spirit

有权柄的 that who has power
你来修正偏离的光景 You correct the deviations
这是个事实: this is a fact:
我已经回复成当初的样子 i have revert to the beginning appearance

2008年11月5日星期三

93, 我躺在罗藤树下 i lie on the broom tree

我躺在罗藤树下 i lie under the broom tree
悲哀蒙住我的眼睛 sadness covers my eyes

每一个墓穴都开出一朵百合 each grave grows out a lily
花的香味将我弄醒 the fragrance of flowers wake me up

在法老的梦里 in Pharaoh's dream
我看见有手掌那么大一小片云在天上 i saw a piece of cloud in the sky as the size of hand

这是预定时刻 this is the scheduled time
你把我放在适当位置 You put me on the appropriate position

我直立在你的恩典之下 i stand in your grace
没人知道我从何而来 nobody knows where i was from

你降下火焰 You descent flames
把我的意志锻炼成精金 refine my will into gold

我在患难的中心看见你 i see You at the center of adversities
那正是你施行拯救的地方 that is the place You actualize salvation

每一个应许都是你恩典之门的钥匙 every promise is the key to the door of Your grace
这是何等靠得住的事实 how reliable fact this is

你在黑暗中告诉我的秘密 the secret You told me in dark
我要站在屋顶上宣扬出来: I will speak out by standing on the roof:

“我爱你!” "I love You!"

92, 美好的愿望照耀着我的的心 good wishes shine my heart

美好的愿望照耀着我的的心 good wishes shine my heart
我花了一个小时装饰衣服上纽扣 i spent an hour on decorating the buttons of clothes
威严的主人就要来了  the majestic master is coming
慈爱永不退色的主人   the master whose kindness never fades

当坏事情发生在好人身上 when bad things happened on good people
我看见了他走在我的前面  i saw Him walking in front of me  
他以自由的方式回应不公 He responds to injustice in a free method
我跟随他 离他越来越近  i followed Him , getting closer to Him

肉体在铁栏的后面颤抖 the body trembled behind the iron railings
灵魂张开蔑视的眼睛 the soul opened the eyes of contempt
他说 你应该住在这里 我的孩子 He said, you should live here, my son
等待我的时候 wait for my time

在世界的某个地方 somewhere in the world
有人在研究非凡生命的起源  someone studys the origin of extraordinary life
他们把这理论写成一本书 they wrote this theory into a book
当做你赐的礼物  as a gift from You

光明的未来展示出一个秘密 bright future showed a secret  
我看见了我的意志 I saw my will
于是 我决定卖掉我的罪  so i decided to sell my sins  
换来一些生命的意义 exchange for some meanings of life

在立春天那天 on the day of the vernal equinox
我和你隔着篱笆拥抱  i and You embraced with the fence between us 
为什么你是我的邻居? why are You my neighbors?  
我必须爱你? and i have to love you?

天使堕落在我的院子里 a angel fall in my yard
他占了我财产 he took my property
我带着一棵空心搬了家  i moved with a hollow heart
从此 和你住在一起  since then, i live together with You

91, Nicole

经上说: Scripture said:
我们都来自尘土 we are from dust
也当归于尘土 should return to dust

我对你的身体充满好奇 i am curious to your body
想知道造你的是什么材料 i want to know what material you was made of

牛顿告诉我Issac Newton tells me
你的任何一个细胞成分the composition of your any one cell
都不属于地球 does not belong to the earth

我曾以为你是夏娃 i thought you as Eve
在与蛇交易之前 before she traded with serpent
她以圣灵的光芒为衣 she cloth herself with Spirit's light
你该有她那般美? may you have her beauty?

但我错了 but i am wrong
因为夏娃来自亚当 because Eve is frome Adam
而亚当原本是一把泥土 Adam was born from a handful of earth
他的身体的化学成分的总和价值 the total price of chemistry component of his body
也不过一个银元 is not enough a silver dollar

我又以为你是罗蕾莱 i thought you were Loreley
她每日以莎林的歌梳妆头发 dresses her long hair by Siren's song everyday
你该有她那般美?may you have her beauty?

但我错了 but i am wrong
因为罗蕾莱的心中藏着痛苦 because Loreley hides pain in her heart
她捕获多少健壮的生命 she catched how many strong lives
用精灵的妙音犯下杀人的罪 did the sin of murder by fairy voice

我一错再错 i am wrong and wrong again
我跪在主的面前i kneel down before the Lord
请求宽恕 ask His forgiveness

主啊O Lord
万物皆为你所造all creatures were made by You
她为什么这么美? why is she so beatiful ?

我用爱和真理做成了她的身体 I made her body of Love and Truth
因为你是我的宠子 you are My favourite ,
所以我给你一瞥她美貌的机会 so I gave you a chance to glace her beauty
为了使你的灵离我更近 in order to let your spirit closer to Me

她的身体是我话语的能量 her body is my words's energy
她就是美 she is Beauty
美就是爱 Beauty is Love
美就是真理 Beauty is Truth

我的宠子My favourite
你该庆幸你没有被她的的美所击杀 you should felicitate you was not killed by her beauty
你看那个可怜的Philip look, that poor Philip
亚当的后代 Adam 's offspring
自以为是上等泥土所造 think himself made of high quality earth
他以骄傲的俊美在人前炫耀 he displays his prideful handsome before crowd
而现在,我要责罚他的罪 but now, I must punish him

啊, 主啊, O Lord,
我已经看见你把他交给她 i have seen you handed him to her


Nicole
你抽出一条美的柔丝拧成皮鞭 you draw out a silk of beauty and twist into a whip
轻轻地打在他身上 whip him tenderly
他便乖顺地伏在你的脚下 he lies down at your feet amenably
满足于做一只小羊 satisfied to be a lamb

Nicole
我看见了你 i saw you
我看见了神的大能 i saw God's power
他的作为是何等的奇妙 how woderful his work is

我原以为你美的虚幻 i had thought your beauty was an illusion
现在 我终于明白 now i finally understand
虚幻的 是这个世界 the vitual is this world
真实的 是你的美 the real is your beauty

90, 在黑暗的梦境里 in the black dreams

在黑暗的梦境里 in the black dreams
总会发生一些事情 there are always somethings to happend
那个敢喝醉酒的女人that woman who is brave to be drink to drunk
又去冒险了 go to risk again

审判官保持沉默 the juge keeps silence
他知道她的心 he knows her heart
从来没有不信实 never faithless

在与上帝对话之后 after conversating with God
他动用了最珍贵的资本 he used the most costful capital
手里的杖来自那棵树 the crosier is from that tree
他认得 he knew

约旦河大哭起来Jordan river cried aloud
是为了谁的尊严? for whose venerability ?
倒下的罪人 the fallen sinners
在她的胸铺上修直上帝的路 restraightened God's road on her breast

舌头是一面小旗子 tangue is a small flag
在牙齿间摇摆 waves between teeth
大拇指迷茫的时候 when thumb is confused
拒绝代表荣耀 it refuse to be representative of gloryness

谦卑的穷人出生了 the humble poor person was born
他来开启地的锁头 he came to open the lock of the earth
然后扔掉钥匙 and then throw away the key

真理发于地上 the truth is from the earth
正是花开的地方 that is just the place the flower is blossoming
因为那朵花拾到了钥匙 because that flower picked the key

舌头知道自己的目的 the tongue knows his aim
只为一千次赞美救世主 only in order to praise the Savior 1000 times
他吩咐强壮的手 he orders the strong hands
去抓住上帝的祝福 to grasp God's blessings

有人以电报的速度奔跑 someone ran in the speed of telegraph
传递关于鬼的消息 to transfer the news about ghost
恐惧和罪恶毁坏了学校的建筑 dread and sins destroyed the buildings of school
每一间教室里都充满了悲伤 every classroom was full of sadness

你还站在那吗 are you still standing there
带着你的武器 with Your weapon ?
我在婚宴上看见了你 i saw you on the wedding banquet
你这处女的后代 you the vigin 's offspring

天使长擅长弹琴 the archangel is good at playing lyre
喜悦人的心 to pleasure people's hearts
胜利者带来欢乐的礼物 the victor brought joyful gifts
放在教室里 put them in the classrooms

从此 光和生命没有了距离 so light and Life have not distance

89, 我听见钟敲了10下 i heard the clock sound ten times

我听见钟敲了10下 i heard the clock sound ten times
天使留下梦和希望就走了 the angel left dreams and hopes and then was gone

光明扮成黑暗的样子 light acts as dark
不耐烦地催我入睡 harry me into sleep impatiently

有个微小的声音把我惊醒 there is a little sound to wake me up
我看见死亡的督察者正蹲在墙角 i saw the death wacther is crouching at the corner
数算着我生命的日子 and counting the days of my life

狗的狂吠掀起夜的空气的波浪 a dog 's bark stired the air wave of the night
我把我的灵全给你 i gave you my whole soul
胸怀里只剩下平安 only left peace in my breast

远处回响着我爱人的名字 there is resound of my lover's name in far place
星光怯懦了 the star light is afraid
黎明打开我的窗户 the dawn opened my window

我的爱人有奇妙作为 my lover has wonderous works
他为美欢呼 he cheers for beauty
美就是他自己 Beauty is himself

上帝制造了一个空瓶子 God created a empty bottle
交给骄傲的帝国 and handed it to the cocky empire
有人在里面装进死亡的恐惧 somesone filled the dread of death into it
放在我的床下 and put it under my bed

我的两眼均已成盲目 my two eyes are blind
即使跳上屋顶 i cannot see His light
也无法看见他的光 even i jump onto the roof

飞鸟和走兽和小花和高草birds and beasts and flowers and grass
和疲劳的人 and tired people
都安歇了 all are rest

无聊的风就象死人的灵魂 bored wind is just like the soul of death
我的爱人用最温柔的祝福合上我的眼皮 my lover closed my eyelids by His most tender blessing

水手航行在深海洋 the sailor navigate on the deep ocean
我听得见他的心跳 i hear his heartbeat
何等均匀 how even equably

邪恶的火耗尽力气 evil fire exhausted his strengh
妄想伤害我 want to hurt me
无罪的人遭受痛苦 sinless people suffer pain
是为祈祷的日子做预备 is to prepare the prayer days

白酒激动了我的心 alcohol excited my heart
我吹起圣者的号角 i blew the Saint's trumpet
在敞开的门前 唤醒死亡的灵魂 to wake up the dead soul before the open door

我的爱人坐在宝座上对我笑 my lover sat on the throne and smiled at me
在地球运行到傍晚的时候 when the earth ran to evening
他消灭了我的悲伤和绝望 He perished my sadness and despair

难到你还不知道 didn't you know?
那个杀人者有多可怜 how pitiful that muderer is
在天黑以前 他没能够找到家 he did not find his home before night came

我的眼睛盯在目标上 my eyes aim at the goal
脚底下生出一对翅膀 a pair of wings grows from my feet sole
没有冒险 那只是如此久远的期待 no risk, that is only agelong expection
我朝着我的爱人奔去 i fly toward my lover

88, 我在黑暗的睡眠中穿行 i walk in dark sleep

我在黑暗的睡眠中穿行 i walk in dark sleep
为了把能量储存在生命里 in order to deposit energy in my life
有人对着我的耳朵说俏悄话 someone speak to my ear steathily
告诉我新宝藏的秘密 tell me the secret about the new treasure

在路的尽头 我遇见了一群学者 i meet a group of scholars on the end of road
他们在研究关于上帝的学问 they were studying the knowledge on God
我拒绝了他们给我的那只铅笔 直奔我父亲的家 i refused the pencil that they gave me , and toward my father's home directly
我离学者越来越远 离父亲越来越近 i am farther and farther from the scholars and closer and closer to my father

我的父亲住在欢乐的晨光里 my father lives in the joyful morning light
他教我怎样亲吻每个人 he taught me how to kiss everyone

我荣耀的嘴唇落在你白色的围裙上 my glory lip printed on your white apron ,
你因此拒绝与别人订婚 so you refuse engage with others

真理赶走了夜的影子 the truth drive out the night shadow
拴在我脖子上的悲伤松了扣 the sadness fastening on my neck is loosed its button
我的罪刺穿了你的肋骨 my sins perforated your rib
你的舌头倾倒那痛苦的杯 your tongue pour out the cup of pain

我用戒指交换你眼睛里的笑 i changed my finger ring for the smile in your eyes
那是一庄完美的生意 that was a perfect business
我因此成为你的使徒 so i became your apostle
在这虚空的世界做你的情人 to be your lover in this virtual world

我的坟墓的尺寸与我的床相同 the size of my tomb is same as my bed's
恶梦再没有来干扰我的睡眠 nightmare never disturbed my sleep
在尊贵的那一天 on that exalted day
只听见伐木的声音 only heard the sound of cutting wood
你的灵将我举起 your spirit left me

云彩出生于地上 cloud was born on the earth
与山谷一起唱着和谐的曲子 sing the harmonious melody together with valley
茂密的森林有一根木头倒下了 in the thick forest there was a wood fallen
又站起来 stood up again

它倒下时压碎了所有的罪 it crushed all sins when it fell
它站起来时 when it stood up
展开的树冠正是天堂的华宇 unfolding crown of the tree is just the honorable roof of heaven

迷惑的孩子坐在他喜欢的环境里沉思 the deceptive child sat in the circumstance he likes and medatated
生活简直是太好了 life is almost too good
除了那些麻烦 except that troubles

我把手放在口袋里 i put my hands into my pocket
没有找到永恒的意义 did not find eternal meaning
风在树梢上旅行 wind travels on the treetop
通过树干和树枝 把生命的信息传给地球 transfer the life information to the earth through bole and branches

古老的村庄与年轻人的心建立了关系 the ageold village built relation with young people 's hearts
草叶和花瓣笑了 grass leaves and flowers petals smiled
每一天都是大师的作品 everyday is master's work
我要为你的寿命数算一千年 i want to count 1000 years for your life

放弃所有糟糕的想象力以后 after having given up all awful imagination
我开始享受真理 i begin to enjoy the truth

87, 你运用诡计使我心碎 you made my heart broken by your tricks

你运用诡计使我心碎 you made my heart broken by your tricks
我把脑袋拴在书上 i tie my head on the books
作为欢乐的晨祭 , as joyful morning sacrifice

为了救赎错用的时间 in order to save the time that was used by mistakes
我从死了的空气里取了一个呼吸 i took a breath from the dead air
用做新燃料的助剂 as combustion adjuvant of new fuel

懒惰的蜜蜂想打开收音机 the lazy bee wants to turn on the radio
有个伟大的日子在那 there is a great day in there
那是上帝决定的日期 that is the date God decided

我的神志象正午一样晴朗 my consciousness is clear as noonday
寻找着上帝指引的道路 looks for the road God directs
他只为睁眼的人做见证 he is witness only for the people with open eyes

几只鸟漂浮在高空 a few birds float on the high sky
我举起我的心 i raised my heart
祈祷有趣的事情快点发生 to pray that interesting things happen quickly

天使整夜在歌唱 angels sing whole night
这一刻,我成熟了一个思想 at that time , i mature a thought
于是,我把脸转向另一个方向 so i turn my face another way

在睡梦中,你将我的肉体更新, you renew my body in my dreams
钉子成为骨头最好的朋友 nails become the friend of body
我成为无尽光明的一部分 i become a part of endless light


我在第一个星期六发誓: i swore on the First Saturday
让你的灵住在我的意志里 let your spirit live in my will
让朝露激活我清晨的第一个想法 let dew stir up my first idea in morning

我所有的力量只有一个用处 all my strength has only one use
获得你的祝福 to get your blessings
而不会落下贪婪的罪 and without the sin of greed

86, 一个男人死在自己的床上 a man died on his own bed

一个男人死在自己的床上 a man died on his own bed
他的眼睛张开着,寻找着上帝的光 his eyes are open to look for God's light
他求了很久, he pray long time
别让他走,这个世界需要他的救赎 don't let him go , this world needs him to redeem

旅行的邻居回来了 the neighbor who traveled comes back
所有的好事情都已经结束 all good things have ended
他要我的母鸡, he want my hen
因为牛顿的智慧不足以生产一只鸡蛋 because Newton 's wisdom is not enough to make an egg

没有树太高 no tree is too tall
没有花太好 no flower is too beautiful
当苹果落在我的头上 when apple drop on my head
这不是凑巧 this is not coincident

上帝的意志改变了 God's will changed
我的使命是抓住那触摸福音书的手 my mission is to grasp the hand that touch gospel
伟大的计划从没有修饰过 great plan has never been decorated
他今天,我明天,问你的时候? he today , i tomorrow , ask your time?

85, 我站在黑暗里 I stand in the dark

我站在黑暗里 i stand in the dark
在早晨开始以前 before the morning began
忧愁从我面前逃跑了 the grief escaped from me

我遵照你的旨意 i follow Your will
在光明中享受安息 enjoy peace in light
而你正在替我工作 while You are working instead of me

我不能预知你的定时 i can not predict Your time
只有等待 have to wait
也许最后一把钥匙才是开我的门的 perhaps the last key is for my door

这是个阴天 this is a cloudy day
但我看见有补丁似的几片蔚蓝 but i see several patches of blue
你造的天空依旧在那儿 the sky You made is still there

没有人只活给自己 no one lives only for himself
因我受苦的日子 beause of my suffering days
我的名字记在你的生命册上 my name was written in Your book of life

天使无法担任我的角色 angels can not act as my role
那幽沉的低音 that pensive undertone
只有我一人能唱 only i one person can sing

我的信心贪婪地增长 my faith grows greedily
却从没有支取得过多 but never took too much
因为你的宝库决不缺货 for Your treasure-house are never out of stock

又是一次欢聚 happily meet again
你与我在秘室里 You and i in secret room
那是不朽的世界 that is a immortal world

84, 半夜 in the midnight

半夜 in the midnight
有人报来你的消息 someone reported Your news

我的新郎 ny groom
你是顶黑的时候摘下的玫瑰 You are the rose picked at the darkest

当荆棘刺破夜莺的胸口 when thorns pierced the chest of nightingale
我出来迎接你 i came out to meet You

你的爱丰富而甘甜 Your love is rich and sweet
我的灵得饱足而安逸 my spirit is full up and at ease

在那最值得纪念的旅程 on the most memorable journey
天使唱个不停 angels sing without stop

我的新郎 my groom
我一直在点着灯等你 with lamp on i have been waiting for You

我的灵芬芳如同黑夜的玫瑰 my spirit is fragrant as the roses in night
因为 我已与你合一 because i and You combined to one

83, 我的言语没有不正当 my speaking was not wrong

我的言语没有不正当 my speaking was not wrong
却承受这特别的攻击 but underwent this particular attack
40年之久 for 40 years

你本是派了使者 You had sent are a messenger
那人中途和他摔跤 that person wrestled with him on the road
绊住他的脚 stumbled his feet

我的苦难已堆积太多 my tribulations accumulated too much
只等你的应许 only wait for You promise
兑现我忍耐的价值 honour the value of my endurance

我的灵厌倦了原来的居所 my spirit is tired of the original home
我得了重病 i had a serious illness
日夜呼求你的诊治 cry for Your treatment day and night

我无法推开那杯 i can not refuse the cup
那是你赐的没药 that is the myrrh You gave
于我有益的你大爱的恩典 good for me the grace of Your great love

“医生,救我!” "Doctor, help me!"
话还没说完 before my words were finished
我的灵已与你的旨意合一 my spirit united Your will

82, 我用锤子钉死了我的疑问 I crucified my doubts by a hammer

我用锤子钉死了我的疑问 I crucified my doubts by a hammer
然后 去做我唯一的事情 then i went do the only thing
----顺服你 ----obey You

我信你答应我的 i believe what You promised me
所以 我可以忍耐我的经历 so i can tolerate my experiences
这正是果子的颜色 this is the color of fruit

我的人生有云彩罩上来 my life is shrouded by a cloud
但我的知识告诉我 but my knowledge told me
它们浴于所遮断的光明中 they bath in the light they shutoff

我从地面望去 i look up from the earth
我的生命又黑又暗 my life is dark and in the shade
于是 我的灵把我载到云峰云谷之上 so i take my spirit above the valley of the clouds

在你的清风前 before Your breeze
云彩只不过来来去去 clouds only come and go
而你把虹放在云彩里 but You put the rainbow in the clouds

2008年11月4日星期二

81, 我原本有一切的忧虑 i did have all worries

我原本有一切的忧虑 i did have all worries
你叫我把它们编织成竖琴 You let me weave them into a harp
从此 我做了那弹琴的人 from then on i have been the player

麻雀清晨唱歌 sparrows sing on early morning
知更鸟晚间唱歌 robins sing at night
我愿意早上晚上都歌唱你 i am willing to sing You on morning and night

翡翠藏在粗大的石头中 jadeite hide in rough stones
这是你的秘密 this is your secret
我能明白其中的意义 i can understand the meamings

窑匠的手压迫着我 the hands of potter press me
我忍受支配 i bear grip
为了成为美丽的器皿 in order to become a beautiful vessel

你告诉过我 You told me
你住在山顶 You live in the peak
我必须有爬山的力气 才得见你 only by the strength going to mountain i can see You

黑暗罩住我 dark is around me
我在痛苦的烈火中穿行 i am going in the agonizing flames
然后我发现 那黑暗只不过是一段隧道 then i found that the dark is only a tunnel

我要做你的爱人 i want to be Your lover
这可不是一件小事 this is not a trivial matter
已经惹起天使的注意 aroused the attention of angels

我也有一对翅膀 I also have a pair of wings
像一根草在风面前 like a grass in front of wind
我顺服你命令的方向 飞行 i fly towards the direction Your order

当我的灵成为你的祝福 when my spirit becomes Your blessing
我重又收拾起残破的希望 i pick up again my broken hopes
系在你的脚上 tie them on Your feet

我要做你的爱人 i want to be Your lover
这个最合理的祈求 this most reasonable prayer
你延搁40年 You delay 40 years

我学习过许多绝望中的功课 i learned many lessons in despair
终于明白 你只等我的脚站牢 finally understand only when my feet stand firmly
才赐给我翅膀 You give me wings

在我出生以前 before i was born
你就为我备好了所有的装饰 You prepared all decorations for me
和那把歌唱的竖琴 and that singing harp

因为 你早已选定我做你的爱人 for You have already selected me as Your lover

80, 直跑 in a beeline

直跑 in a beeline
是顶近顶快的路 is the closest and fastest way
我奔向你 i run towards You

我走过东西南北 i traversed the whole world
询问过所有的人 asked all people
哪里都没有拯救 nowhere to be found redemption

你就在这里 You are here
一直在这里 has been here at all times
等我 waiting for me

我肩上担着一副担子 there is a burden on my shoulders
很重 very heavy
我已经担了很久 i have carried it for a long time

我以为我担的是宝物 i thought that was a treasure i carried
舍不得交给任何人 i wouldn't like to hand it to anyone
只给你 only to You

现在 我一无挂虑 now, i have no concerns
我伸出手 i reach out my hands
接过你为我制定的计划 accept the plan that You designed for me

我无法胜任你的参谋 i am not competent to be Your advisor
所以 我成为你的奴隶 therefore, i become Your slave
顺服你 obey You

79, 我不知道 我是否失恋了 i do not know if i am lovelorn

我不知道 我是否失恋了 i do not know if i am lovelorn
因为我的耳朵闭塞 because my ears are occlusive
眼目昏花 my eyes are dim-sighted
手脚麻木 my hands and feet are numb
我的感觉失去了你的存在 my feeling lost You
但我的意志还在听你 看你 触摸你 but my will still listens to You ,sees You and touches You

我要发掘你对我的意义 i want to explore Your meaning for me
这是生死攸关的大事 this is a vital event
在风调雨顺的日子 in the favourable days
我对你袖手旁观 i stand by You
曾经沧海时 when at sea
你是我最迫切寻求答案的问题 You are the question that i am urgent to know the answer

有人送给我免费的诊断 someone gave me a free diagnosis
证据太多 too much evidences
好树结出好果 a good tree bears good fruits
我却误入歧途 but i have gone astray
我恍然大悟地说: i suddenly understand,said:
原来是你 it was You

78, 你说话时 when You talk

你说话时 when You talk
口里发出百合的香味 Your mouth sends the fragrance of lily
我是那个与你面对面的人 i am the person who is with you face-to-face

我要与你同心同行 i want to be with You one heart and go the same way
在你搀扶的日子 in the days of your help
我全不费力地活在你的旨意里 wothout effort i lived in Your will

你比沙伦的玫瑰更美 You are more beautiful than the roses of Sharon
因为你完美无缺 because You are beauideal
我祈祷 我是你花瓣的颜色 i pray i am the color of Your petal

你用真光刺瞎我的双眼 You blind my eyes true with Your light
你用慈手打开我的心门 You open the door of my heart with Your kind hands
头脑没有用处 brains have no use

园里的凤仙开了 the balsamines in garden blossom
这是个不乏话题的时代 this times is not short of subjects of talk
我承认 我没有找到答案 i admit that I did not find the answer

一滴水落在海里 a drop of water fell into the sea
我消失了自己 i disappeared myself
与你融为一体 integrated with you

2008年11月3日星期一

77, 众光之父 the Father of all lights

众光之父 the Father of all lights
没有转动的影儿 has no shadow of turning

我张开双目 I open my eyes
看到你真理的美妙 see the wonderful of Your truth

有谁关心那些人的论断 who mind those people's judgement
我只在乎你的结论 i only care about your conclusions

你说 凡我脚掌踏到的地方 You say,all places that my feet arrived
你都已经赐给我 You have given them to me

我的脚穿窄门走窄路 my feet go through the narrow door and walk on the narrow way
我的产业又大又美 my property is big and beautiful

我抬头仰望你: I look up to You:
“父, 求你以慈光常照我。 "Father, shine Your kind light on me.

我是你园子里的一棵树, I am a tree in Your garden
我的灵从地朝向你。” my spirit is towards You from the earth"

“孩子,我喜爱你, " my son, I love you,
草枯花残,我立定你。” grass may dry up, flowers may fade; but I establish you."

“你这救人命的大医生, "You great doctor who save lives
快治愈我因走窄路而受伤的脚。” cure my injured feet because of walking on the narrow way. "

我低头看 I bow to look
发现自己根本没有脚 find myself no feet

我的灵生出一对翅膀 my spirit grow a pair of wings
载着我飞向你 carry me to fly to You

76, 有人在酒里掺了水 someone adulterated wine with water

有人在酒里掺了水 someone adulterated wine with water
在奶里掺了水 adulterated milk with water
我知道是谁干的 i know who did that

那个做假的跪在你的面前 that fraud knelt down before You
他不需要宽恕 he does not need forgiveness
他要的是水钱 what he wants is the water money

你把房子盖在磐石上 You built Your house on the rocks
这令我的眼界大开 this is an eye-opener to me
我承认 我的智慧不如你的设计 i admit that my wisdom can not compare your design

我的灵屈服于你 my spirit surrenders to You
我认罪: i know my sins:
我就是那个掺假的贼 i am the adulterating thief

我的家被大水冲走 my home was swept away by flood
从此我搬了地方 since then I moved
住在你磐石之上的房子里 live in your house on the rock

75, 我是蒙你大恩的女子 i am the woman in Your grace

我是蒙你大恩的女子 i am the woman in Your grace
天使报来消息: angel told me the news:
你将和我住在一起 You will live together with me

我心里火热 my heart is full of passion
反复思想这件事 repeatedly think of this thing
却怎么也猜不透你恩典的奥秘 can not understand the mystery of Your grace

你给了我心和脑 You gave me heart and brain
我需要的更多 i need more
请赐给我使用它们的方法 please let me know how to use them

我要修平脚下的路 I will level off the road under my feet
浓酒使我摇晃 the strong drink made me shake
偏向左右 and go far from the center

真理的掌握者 the holder of truth
别束手看我 do not see me with tied hands
求你将我扶正 i pray You support me

你的指引何等优美 how beautiful Your guide is
我的脚只走你荣耀的路 my feet only walk on Your glorious way
我的邻居因你得了我的造就 my neighbor got my achievement because of You

74, 我放下偏见 i put aside prejudice

我放下偏见 i put aside prejudice
将我的灵交给你 give you my spirit
让你审察我信心的光景 allow you to monitor my belief

我的盐没有了 i have no salt
我知道你爱听我至诚的祷告: i know that you like my sincere prayer:
“请主成全!” " please fulfill my wishes"

我曾以为心血来潮能垒起河水 i even thought that whim can pile up river
那不是你的法则 that is not your law
你的启示本有特定的意义 Your revelation has a special meaning

那撒谎的什么也没做 that liar has done nothing
那穿着破烂衣服的 that wearing ragged clothes
不知道自己做的是什么 does not know what he did

我不敢夸口我的饼好 i dare not boast of my good cake
求你将我翻熟 i pray you fully cook me
合你的胃 fit your stomach

73, 光 没有问题 light,no defects

光 没有问题 light,no defects
是我眼睛生了病 it is my eyes that has illness
将你的真理和事情看偏 misread Your truth and facts

我的灵挣扎了40年  my spirit struggled for 40 years
离开了我的身体 left my flesh
因此 我的身体死了 then my flesh is dead

我听见你的教导 i heard Your teaching
却没有留意 did not pay attention
把它们放在行为里 and act on them

你叫我抓住你的话 You tell me to seize Your words
好赐我新生命 so that You can give me a new life
内里有光和力 there are light and force in it

现在 我不需勉强 now i do not need to make efforts
就可以活的很像你 i can live like You
因你在我的灵上打上了你的印记 because You imprint on my spirit

72, 你劝我悔改 You advise me to repent

你劝我悔改 You advise me to repent
因你厌恶这些事 for You dislike these things

我的爱人 my Lover
你竟决没有留余地 You did not leave any leeways
而要我百分之百的忠诚 want my 100 percent loyalty

你看出我的罪  You saw at a glance my sins
你的眼里满了慈爱和怜悯 Your eyes filled with love and compassion

我的爱人 my Lover
我听见你的呼唤 i heard Your call
叫我从偏路上回头 want me back from the wrong road

在你的门前 in front of Your door
我看见有恩典流出来 淹没我 i see grace flowing out ,drowning me

我的爱人 my Lover
你的恩典何其大 How great your grace is
覆盖了我污秽的灵 covered the filthy spirit

我得救了 I was saved

71, 你知道这件事 You know this thing

你知道这件事 You know this thing
我与我的灵彼此挂虑 i and my spirit worry about each other
40年不止息 until now 40 years

我的愁容 我的声调 my scowl, my tone
我最微小的动作 my tiny actions
都在宣告我们俩关系不合 all declared the relation between both of us is ill-fitting

我需要安静的能力   i need the ability to quiet
我原可以依靠信心漂浮 i can have had floated on the belief
却因自己挣扎沉了下去 but i sank down because of myself struggle

我以为 我的那个愿望又大又高 i think my wish is too big and too high
被世界笑为荒谬 be laughed as a absurd by the world
便全然放弃 so i completely give it up

我岂有智慧知道 do i have wisdom to know that
在我看是不可能的 in me, it is impossible
却正是你要我去成就的旨意 but is just the will You want me to execute

那不信你的 妄想拦阻你的计划 those who do not believe You want to block Your plans
愚昧人不配得你的慈爱与能力 simple people don't deserve your kindness and ability
我和我的灵一起屈服 i and my spirit surrender to You

70, 每一条路都是弯的 every road is bend

每一条路都是弯的 every road is bend
每一条路都通向死 every road leads to death

你手里拿着那把尺子 You holds that ruler in Your hand
量出我心的歪曲 measures the distortion of my heart

我将我的灵旋转一百八十度 i turn my spirit 180-degrees
面对你 face You

我伏在你的手下 i pronate under your hands
请求医治的恩典 ask for the grace of healing

你重又赐我新生 You give me a new life
因为我思想的方式改变了方向 because my thinking way changed the direction

69, 我的良心越变越硬 my conscience gets hard

我的良心越变越硬 my conscience gets hard
我的行为定了我死罪 my acts sentence my death

我的智力不足以建造这样的道路 my intelligence is not enough to build a such road:
将我的灵导向你 guide my spirit to You

你说:“变成小孩子, You say: "be a child,
这是你回家的路。” this is the road to your home. "

回转 回转 return, return
我听见你的呼唤 i heard Your calling

我转过身 i turned about
就在那时 我变成了一个小孩子 on that time, I became a child

那正是回家的路的起点 that is the starting point of the road to my home
而你站在光明里等我 and You are standing in light to wait for me

68, 有人伤了我的脚跟 someone injured my heel

有人伤了我的脚跟 someone injured my heel
想在我的身上结下死结 wanted to make the dead knot on my body
我知道 他是那个与你为仇的 i know he is who hates you

我想回到先前居住的园子 i want to go back to the previous garden i lived
可是 我的眼睛已成盲目 but my eyes have become blind
再也找不到方向 can not find the direction

在这病重垂危的世界 in this dying sick world
我呼求你的急救:i cry for your first aid:
除去我的罪 remove my sins

你来是为了拯救我 You come here in order to rescue me
这是你唯一的路 this is Your only way
你朝目标走去 You go to the goal

你到达我罪的根源 You reached the root of my sins
进入我苦痛的深处 entered the depth of my sufferings
为此 连你的灵也遭离弃 for this reason, even Your spirit has also been abandoned

你在天地间展开双臂 between heaven and the earth, You stretched Your arms
那是你爱的方式 that is the way you love
既长阔又高深 long ,wide, high and deep

你的始源隐藏在奥秘中 Your origin hides in the mysteries
你的权柄在你选定的时刻 Your power is in Your selected moment
“成了!”it is finished !"

企会有人设计害我 who dare plan to hurt me
那个伤我脚跟的 that injured my heel
你砸碎了他的头 You smashed his head

我站在你面前 i stand before You
我的灵已打上你舍命的记号: my spirit bears the mark of Your life:
毫无瑕疵 一如初生 there is no any flaw, as a newborn

我回到先前住的园子 i went back to the garden i lived previously
我的心眼开了 my heart eyes are open
你透视进来 You penetrated into me

67, 现在正是悦纳的时候 now is the time to accept

现在正是悦纳的时候 now is the time to accept
现在正是拯救的日子 now is the time to save

那原本令我恐惧的大敌 the archenemy i fear
你已经战胜 You have defeated

你来了 You came here
把新的态度教导给我 teach me new attitude

我的右眼叫我跌倒 my right eye tumbles me
我把它剜出来 丢在火湖里 i cut it out and throw it into the fire lake

我既认了罪 since i have confessed my sins
何需担忧你的审判 anyhow,don't worry about your trial

我的身体已死 my body is dead
我的灵去到你为我预备的地方 my spirit went to the place you prepared for me

在那座你建造的城 in the city that You built
我以左睛真理 i watch the Truth by my left eye

我再不需询问你 i don't need to ask you
答案就在这里 here is the answer

我的灵魂完全纯净 my soul is totally pure
伏在你面前 等候复活 i prostrate before you to wait for the revival

我的新身体像你的一样荣耀 my new body is glory like Yours
这一次 我只为赞美你而存在 this time i live only in order to praise You

66,我就象瞎子 不能欣赏四周的美景 i am like the blinds who can not enjoy the beautiful scenery around him

我就象瞎子 不能欣赏四周的美景 i am like the blinds who can not enjoy the beautiful scenery around him
象聋子 听不见交响乐 like the deafs who can not hear symphony
我与你的世界的奇妙光辉隔绝 i am isolated with the glories of Your wonderful world

在两股巨大的拉力中间 between the two great pulling forces
我的灵被扯断 my spirit was broken
死了 died

没人记念那破碎的罐子 no one remembers the jar that has been fragmentized
它盛满过废物或珠宝 it was full of waste or jewellery
它像我 一生过得很热闹 it is like me, whole life is very busy

我的灵渴求安宁的喜乐 my spirit longs for the joy of peace
它断了 it is broken
我因此流泪 战栗 so i tear and tremble

我是个独处的孤单人 i am a lonely person
水动的时候 when the water moves
没人把我放到池子里 no one puts me in the pool

谁能复合我这断了的灵? who can recovery my this broken spirit
你走过来 You come over
我向你呼求:治愈我!I cry to You: cure me !

我要这心和生命有何用 what purpose my this heart and life are
全给你 all for You
赎我的罪 atone for my sins

我站在我的尸体旁哭泣 i stand beside my corpse and cry
面前是一个大坟场 before me is a big cemetery
里头只有一个坟墓 there is only one grave

你伸出强有力的手 You lend a strong hand
擦去我的眼泪 wipe my tears
我的灵从我的尸体上站了起来 my spirit stand up from my corpse

我看见你如此美妙 i see You so wonderful
我跟你回家 I follow You to go home
与你一起吃完最后的晚餐 eat the last supper together with You

你当我是你的孩子 You think i am Your child
我以为 我不过是你的客人 i think i am Your guest
我打开门 走了出去 I open the door and go out

你的门外全是黑夜 the outside of Your door is all night
我迷了路 i am lost
黑夜抉住我的灵 the night catch my spirit

那是你曾治愈的完整的灵 that is a complete spirit You cured
缠裹在黑夜中 involved in the night
所有的方向都通向地狱 all directions lead to hell

“孩子, 回家来” " my son, return to home"
我回头 看见你还站在那儿 i look back and see You still stand there
你真是我的父 You are really my father

我曾藐视你 厌弃你 i contemned You, reject You
直到赎不回我的灵 until cannot atone for my spirit
再没有逃亡的路 there is no way to flee any more 

“父,救我!” "Father, save me!"
在宇宙间最孤单的地方 in the loneliest place of universe,
我哭喊你的名 i cry out Your name

我离死不过一步 i am only one step to death
而我终于恢复与你的关系 and finally i restore the relationship with you
认你为父 identify You are my father

65, 你把新年摆在我面前 You put New Year in front of me

你把新年摆在我面前 You put New Year in front of me
等待我经过 wait for me to go through it
我不知道前路有你 i do not know You are on the road

你为春天做了无微不至的设计 You did meticulous design for spring
小鸟和百合花都不曾被修订 birds and lilies do not have been amended
以原本样式住在你的城里 they live in Your city in their original styles

我听过各式各样的诺言 i have heard all kinds of promises
转眼成空 they are nothing after just a while like a blink of eyes
在那里 整个地狱的力量倾巢而出 there the whole hell turns out in full strength

小鸟和百合花得了你的恩宠 Birds and lilies got your special favor
因了风的诉说 ecause of the wind's speaking
把你的应许透露给我 divulge Your promise to me

我的心灵在重担下呻吟 my soul groans under the burden
我在危难中呼求你 I cry to you in distress
你来了 我却以为你是陌生人 you are here ,but i think you are stranger

谁能把真理教导我? who can teach me the truth
我这生命有限的被造物 i, a mortal creation
从广大的穹苍看见了你 see You from universe

你有骨有肉 You have a bone and flesh
从最小的水滴 from the smallest drop of water
我的手触摸你 my hands touch You

我居住在我的身体中 i live in my body
这是你为我安排的客栈 this is the inn You arrange for me
我将到你等待我的地方 i will go to the place You wait for me

你在我的心弦上系了线 You tie a string in my heart
我能感到那奇妙温暖的扯力 i feel the magical and warm pull
我知道你在那里 i know You are there

一个充满了欠缺和弱点的人 a person who is with many faults and weaknesses
穿过你的门 through Your door
走你的道路 walk Your road

我曾忽略你给我的帮助 i neglected the help You gave me
蔑视你的法则 contemned Your rules
我的头脑太有限 my mind is too limited

你有多温柔就有多坚强 how gentle You are, same strong You are
你用爱涂抹我的罪 You cover my sins by Your love
我得以跨过那隔绝的深渊 so i cross the abyss that separate me

你的住所毫无瑕疵 there is no flaw in your home
里面全没有黑暗 absolutely no dark inside
你比初生的亚当更完美 You are more perfect than the new-made Adam

河水在自身里头奔走 a river runs in itself
那是一条又黑又冷的深峡 that is a dark cold deep canyon
它想向上流入温暖快乐的平原 it wants to flow up the warm happiny plain

当我决定听从魔鬼的谎言 when i decided to listen to the lies of devil
自由意志无以自拨 the free will cannot save itself
只有诚心诚意呼求你的怜悯 had to sincerely cry for your mercy  

我住在你的三重死亡的锁的后面 i live in behind Your triple death locks
我拥有所有的钥匙 i have all keys
却打不开任一道门 but cannot open any door

我是与生俱来的罪人 i am a born sinner
在这天昏地黑的世界 in this faint world
连太阳也掩面不愿看我 even the sun turn its face aside because of disliking to see me

三个污秽的灵纠缠着我 tree filthy spirits bother me
我迷惑了 i am confused
走差了路 went the wrong road

我看见撒旦向人人展示他的杰作 i see Satan show everyone his masterpiece
而你站在那儿 You stand there
等我转回 wait for me to turn back

我从他的圈套里拉住我的灵魂 i pulled my soul from his trap
躲过吼叫的狮子 escaped the roaring lion
从窄门奔向你 run toward You through the narrow door

64, 饱经苦难的世界 the world that experienced innumerable tribulations

饱经苦难的世界 the world that experienced innumerable tribulations
耗尽最后一丝力气 exhausted its last strength

我象掉在河里就要没顶的人 i am like a person who fell in a river and getting died
寻找可以逃生的机会 look for the opportunity to flee for life

我身受巨痛 my body is in seriously pain
却不知道是因为生病 还是因为吃药 do not know is because of illness or medication

不幸的事困扰着我 unlucky things bother me
在这无望的境地徘徊 wander in this hopeless situation

我的内心深处是一片真空 yy heart is vacuum
我需要的是方向 i need is a direction

如果有一条路可以领我出黑暗 入光明 if there is a road that can lead me out of dark into light
我一定要把这条路找出来 i must find it out

我发现 我一直在寻找一样东西 i am convinced that I have been looking for a thing
它比全世界更重要 it is more important than the whole world

一个单靠食物活着的人 a person who live on only food
是个真空的人 is a vacuum person 

我的老问题一直在那儿 my old problems is there all along
而且越来越大 越来越复杂 and grow bigger and more complex

我可以改变事物 i can change things
却改变不了自己 but can not change myself

你早已经判定了我的死 You have already sentenced my death
这是无可挽救的命运 this is the irreparable fate

救恩时代本是你的宽限 the era of salvation is Your extend period
我生活在借来的时间中 i live in the borrowed time

在危机四伏环境里 in the crisis environment
有你在船上 就会风平浪静 ocean will be calm with you on ship

万事会改变 Everything may change
惟你永不变 only You are eternal

我找到了方向 i find the direction
你填满了我的真空 You fill in my vacuum

63, 谁有秘诀能开启我的心 who has the key open my heart

谁有秘诀能开启我的心 who has the key open my heart
让我接受你的大能 let me accept Your power

撒但也会仿冒你的工作 Satan imitate Your work
这是他最厉害的诡计 this is his most useful trick

我掉进了他的陷阶  i fall into his trap
全然麻痹 不知道撒但的存在 Completely inattentive , do not know the existence of Satan

你住在我里面 You live in me
且从里面改变我 and change me from the inside

你是唯一的答案 You are the only answer
我心所渴幕的都本于你 what my heart is thirst for is based on You

我象一个饿坏的孩子 i am like a hungry child
狼吞虎咽地吃下你的话 devour Your words ravenously

我愿意去你要我去的地方 i am willing to go the place where you order me to go
也愿意待在你要找停留的地方 also willing to stay the place where you want me to stay

我所能作的 what I can do
就是把时间给你用 is to give You my time

62, 有人企图改变我 someone try to change me

有人企图改变我 someone tries to change me
引用你的话向我说教 preaches to me by quoting Your words
那人舌头上有火焰 this person has flame on his tongue
耳朵里有大风 has strong wind in his ears

既然不花钱 since no cost
那就好好享受吧 enjoy it to the top of bent
我和陌生人一起 i am with strangers
在你的灵里醉倒 drunk in Your spirit

我心中听见一些不明白的言语 i heard in my mind some words i do not understand
那是你在对我说话 that is You speaking to me
我知道你活着 i know you are alive
真葡萄树从我的身体里长出来 real vines from grow out of my body

我低头看见自己的罪 i bow head to see my sins
抬头看见你的荣光和至善至美的旨意 rise head to see Your glory and perfect will
我抱住你 i hold You
我得到了你 i get You

61, 我如何能无所欠疚地面对你 how can i face You without guilt

我如何能无所欠疚地面对你 how can i face You without guilt
那美善的境界 that wonderful realm
我要让全世界都知道 i want the whole world knows

我用40年没能赚到可夸的 i did not earn my boast in 40 years
便哑口无言 so i am speechless
可如今我得了你的重礼 but now i get your great gift

谁能保守这样大的秘密 who can keep such a big secret
私藏你的礼物 hide your gift in private
那是罪 that is a sin

我把引诱犯罪的双眼挖出来 i dig out the eyes that tempt me into sins
用心为眼阅读你的每一条教训 use my heart as eyes to read Your each teaching
和每一个比喻 and each metaphor

旧事已过 the past things have passed
我是你新造的人 i am a new person you created
安居你的境界 live in Your realm

我爱你 i love you
所以要取悦你 so to please You
走窄路去到你那里 go to You through the narrow road

我不再惧怕 i am afraid no longer
在你的爱里我得以完全 i can be complete in your love
从此 世界有刑罚 thence there is a penalty in the world anymore

我挣扎的太久 i struggle for too long
不是你的时间安排的太晚 not Your time is too late
而你就是我的答案 but You is my answer

在人与人之间 between people
我受过伤 i had injuries
你却认我是你完美无缺的爱人 but You recognize me as your perfect lover

理智惹下麻烦 sense causes troubles
将我带到远离你的地方 take me to the place away from You
但我有权选择爱你 but i have the right to choose loving you

你降临在我生命中最黯淡的时刻 You came to my life on the darkest moment
成为救我脱离苦海的方式 as the way to save me out of the abyss of misery
你比毒品更有效 You are more effective than drugs

泪水由我的面颊流下 tears shed by my cheek
我哭喊:求你宽恕我的叛逆 i cry: forgive my treachery
来作我生命的主 to be the Lord of my life

你是我经验的事实 You are the fact i experienced
当我的意志屈服于你 when my will surrenders to You
你便将我的灵举起 You lift my spirit

我制服了感觉和疑惑 I tamed sense and doubt
我听见了你的话 i hear your words
我必要晓得真理 i must know the truth

60, 一个婴孩将自己手脚尽量伸长 an infant extends his hands and feet as long as possible

一个婴孩将自己手脚尽量伸长 an infant extends his hands and feet as long as possible
他想因此而长大 he wants to grow up in such way
想凭自己的力量长大 wants depend on his own strength to grow up

你为我预备了各样福气 You prepared various blessings for me
不是我劳作的特别工价 they are not the special price for my work
乃是我属于你 but i belong to You

我照镜子时 知道自己并不圣洁 i know myself none sanctity when i look into a mirror
你却看见一个全新的人 You see a new person
因为你无瑕疵的眼睛 because Your flawless eyes

你把一大堆的爱倒在我身上 You pour a heap of love on me
你看见了什么?what do You see
那是你自己的爱 不是我 that is your love, not me

你有权赐给我金银财宝 You have right to give me treasures
也有权用爱包围我 also have right to surround me with love
我是你完美的唯一途径 i am the only way You perfect Yourself

你说我可以得到每一件想要的东西 i say you can get everything i want
在你的爱里 in your love
我可以放胆无惧 i feel totally free


我是那个伸展手脚的婴孩 i am that infant who stretches hands and feet
无法用力气赚得你的福份 can not earn Your blessings by efforts
就白得了 so get them free

骄傲诱惑着我 pride tempts me
远离你为我打开的家门 away from the door You opened for me
我掉进危险的陷阱 i fall into the trap of danger

自以为没罪的 those who think themselves no sins
拿石头丢下来砸我 throw stones on me
在我和世界之间 请你判断对错 between i and the world, You judge right and wrong

我求你给我饼和鱼 i ask You for a cake and fish
我清除家里堆积的什物 i remove the accumulation of home
倒空自己的身体 empty my own body

我等你进来 i am waiting for Your coming in
你的灵是真理的灵 Your spirit is the spirit of truth
我全人降伏 浸透其中 I surrender wholly, soak in it

于是 我启开嘴唇 so i open my lips
将你的话大声说了出来 speak out Your words aloudly
突然 我比以前更加明白你是谁 suddenly i understand who You are more than ever before

思想不会愚弄我 thinking would not fool me
我知道 你必将完成一切 i know you will complete all
那就是你对我的意义 that is the meaning you are for me

真理的江河流出去给别人 the river of truth flow to others
因为它做成在我的内心 because it was made in my heart
将我的灵释放得自由 release my spirit to enjoy freedom

我弃绝理智中枢 i reject my sensible center
选择与你直接交通 choose direct communication with You
在你的荣光环绕里轻哼着歌曲 croon a song in Your glory surrounding me

59, 为什么你为我安排了这个计划 why did you arrange this plan for me

为什么你为我安排了这个计划 why did you arrange this plan for me
它如此特别 不同凡响 it is so special and incredible
莫非你要我成为了不起的人? do you want me to become a great person?

当生命充满艰苦和诱惑 when life is full of hardship and temptation
那是你增强我忍耐和信心的方式 that is the way you strengthen my patience and confidence
你原本没有降祸于我的意念 You did not have the ideas to put disasters on me

如果你要我的独生子为祭 if you want my only son as sacrifice
我可以献上 i can offer
因你给了我千年万代的子孙 because you give me the offspring of millenniums

我注视着他 i watch him
像询问方向的孩子 same as a child who ask the direction
我看见爱的果子成为真光 i see the fruit of love becomes the true light

你击打着我的灵 You hit my spirit
请取去我那不爱人的心吧 please take my heart that does not love people
而以你的爱充满我 and fill me with Your love

孩子出生后有名有姓 a child has a name after his birth
你必要这么做 You must do so
你的爱从来没有徒劳无获 Your love has never been futile

你选择了一个受伤很重的人 You choose a person who is serious injured
她的眼睛盯在地基的裂缝上 her eyes stare at the cracks in the foundation
你以盲目治愈了她 You cure her with blindness

你亲手种下葡萄树 You plant vines personally
当你修剪过的玫瑰开了花 when the roses you trimmed blosom
我把我的疼痛熬炼成了银子 i smelt my pain into silver

58, 你温柔地数着我的头发 You gently count my hairs

你温柔地数着我的头发 You gently count my hairs
不允许它们有一根掉落 do not permit a hair to fall off
我知道 你有多么看中我 i know how much you think of me

麻雀死了 sparrow died
悲剧发生了 tragedy happened
你依旧无动于衷 You still sits by

有谁十全十美 who is perfect
谁应该对厄运负责 who should be responsible for misfortunes
那原本是你奇妙作为的结果 that are the results of Your wonderful doings

你说 你没有创造罪恶 You said you did not create evil
它伏在我的门口 it ambushed before my door
成为自由意志的诱惑 became a temptation to free will

我祈求你全能的手改变这一切: i pray Your almighty hands change all this:
为我的益处 for my benefit
让一个孩子夭折 let a child die

你推翻兑换银钱之人的桌子 You overthrow the tables of the perons who exchange money
然后伏在铁钉下 and then lie under the nails
你的愤怒你的顺服都是为了我 Your anger and submission all are for me

狮子吼叫着遍地游行 lions roar hunting everywhere
你取下手足上的钉子 You remove the nails on Your hands and feet
钉在我心上 hammer in my heart

我能战胜狮子的攻击 i can beat lions' attack
我的灵与你一起死了 my spirit died together with You
我的心因铁铸的支撑而坚强 my heart became strong because of the support of casting iron

恐惧想先入为主制服我 fear gets the drop on me
地里的小花摇晃 the florets on field wave
是在你的灵里舞蹈 is to dance in your spirit

你的作为如此及时 your doings are so timely
母鹿的蹄有多快 how fast doe's hooves are
我这样追随你 i follow you in such speed

这有多愚蠢 this is so stupid
有时 我的感觉胜过我的意志 sometimes my feeling is over my will
有时 我的意志迷失了追随你的方向 sometimes my will lost the direction to follow you

我曾妄想调整自己的生活 i wish to adjust my life
忍耐我有限的理智 endure my limited sense
那是你无限的慈爱 that is your unlimited love

我的理智是一道又厚又长的墙 my sense is a long and thick wall
我想把我的灵托付给你 i want to entrust my spirit to you
可墙太高 but the wall is too high

如果有一天房顶倒塌 压死我所有的儿女 if someday the roof collapses and crushed my all children
你是导演 You are the director
我按照你的方式演出 i perform in your way

悲伤撕破我的衣服 sadness tore my clothes
当灾祸来临 when calamities came
我以赤身你 i turn towards you nakedly

我怎敢质问你的管理法则 how I dare doubt Your management rules
那块田里的麦穗是为我留的吗? are the ears of wheat in the field for me?
我拾起了它 I pick them up

你救我脱离饥荒 You save me out of famine
我站石头堆上 i stand on a pile of stones
那是众人砸碎我的见证的地方 that is the place the people broke my witness

你的光芒刺瞎了我的双眼 Your light blinded my eyes
连我死了的灵也点燃了 even ignited my spirit
我举起它照亮路程 i raised it illuminate my journey

穿过风暴、烈火和洪水 through the storm,fire and flood
我心里唯一有把握的 the only certainty in my mind
是走你命令的道路的愿望 is the wish of walking your road

我出发了 i start off

57, 我跪在你的面前 i kneel in front of You

我跪在你的面前 i kneel in front of You
奉你的名 in Your name
求你给我快乐 ask You give me happiness

我知道 你白白地赏赐我许多 i know that You gave me many freely
我要你的快乐 i want your happiness
从一开始就需要它 from the beginning i need it

你用你灵的手 You use Your spirit hands
把一粒种子种在我的心里 grow a seed in my heart
快乐开始发芽生长 happiness begins germination

捆锁和患难纠缠着 oppression and tadversities catch me
我的身体已经长成快乐的大树 my body has grown into a happy big tree
痛苦是它日用的养料 pain is its daily bread

大卫知道快乐的秘诀 David knows the secret of happiness
天使喜欢他的竖琴 angels like his harp
他从来没有独处过 he has never been alone

我的意志运行在你快乐的灵里 my will runs in Your happy spirit
弯曲的关节伸直了 tortuous joint straightens out
恢复成你创造的原状 restore the original shape You created

我曾经忍受习惯的控制 i have put up with the control of habit
胃的觉悟使我无法入睡 stomach's awareness made me cannot sleep
毒药伤害了我 poison hurt me

当黑暗变得更深沉的时候   when darkness becomes deeper
我向你呼喊 i shout to You
你听见了 命令天使用我的声音作成琴弦 You heard and ordered the angels use my voice to make strings of harp

一道亮光驻在乌云之上 a beam of light stays above the dark clouds
我延着你竖立的梯阶走去 i walk toward to Your ladder
在那里与你相遇 meet You there

我突然了解我生命的事实 suddenly i understand the fact of my life
你住在那里 You live there
是为了让我放弃依靠器官的感觉 in order to let me give up relying on the feeling of organs

牙医报告来新消息 the dentist report new news
每一颗失掉的牙齿都体验你的快乐 each lost tooth experienced Your happiness
你治好我生命中每一个过去的创痕 You healed the past wounds in my life

我看见我路程的标竿 i see the post of my journey
那是世界的目的 that is the aim of World
我和你合而为一 i and You combine into one

领了判决书的 住进了监狱 those who got judgement went to prison
我知道我必定死 i know i must die
因为我是个真正的自由人 because i am a truly free person

身败名裂?真荒唐!lose all standing and reputation? ridiculous!
我推倒监狱的墙 i pushed the walls of prison
用你无限的平安建立保障 use Your unlimited peace as shield

酗酒之徒潦倒在街角 a drunkard lies on the corner of street
想改变自己的人失败了 one more person who wishes to change himself failed
你说:起来, 去吧! You say: stand up, go!

尝试超越你的快乐的 those who try to go beyond Your happiness
领了你的旨意去了 accept your order and leave
这计划并非偶然 this is not accidental

你扯掉我的大披肩 You tear off my big shawl
我的残缺的形骸 my deformed body
因为你的直视而无羞无愧 has no shame because of your direct sight

你用受难勉励我为一切欢欣踊跃 You use sufferings to encourage me to rejoice in all
我得了你的真理的权柄 i got the power of your truth
等候你再来 wait for Your coming again

当铁钉穿过你的手足 when the nails went through your hands and feet
十二营天使弹响竖琴 the twelve battalions of angels play harps
为我伴奏歌唱你的诗篇 accompany the songs i sing for You

曾以为美梦成为幻影 i thought my dream became mirage
但我看见你来了but i see You come
你用快乐填满我整个身体的虚空 You fill my whole body with happiness

我悔恨 我的眼太迟钝 i regret my eyes are too slow
你与我同行已经很久很远 You have been walking with me for a long time and a far distance
我才认出你来 i just recognized You

起来,去吧! stand up, go!
我领了你的旨意 i receive Your will
快乐地回家了 go home happily

56, 我向往你的美地已经很久 it is long time i have been looking forward to your beautiful land

我向往你的美地已经很久 it is long time i have been looking forward to your beautiful land
可我的罪羁绊住我的脚 but my sins fetter my feet
以至40年无法行走 i cannot walk for 40 years

有人吃了太多的肉 someone ate too much meat
他们从鼻孔里喷出来的 that from their nostrils
正是你的厌恶 is just your aversion

阳光照进我的窗子 sunlight shone on my window
你的灵进了门 your spirit came into the door
然后我醒了 then I woke up

他来告诉我明天的天气 He told me about tomorrow's weather
如果我不喜欢阴雳 if I do not like cloudy
谁倾听我的怨诉 who listen to my complaint

我要去你的美地安歇 i want to your beautiful land to rest
我要同时弹奏一千种乐器 i want to play 1000 kinds of musical instruments at the same time
让受压的心尽情炫耀你恩赐的狂喜 let the pressed heart show off the exultation that you give


在我没有认识你以前 before i knew you
风的翅膀常常戏弄我 the wind wings often teases me
我失业了 I am out of work


星期一早上 monday morning
有人送来一份赎罪祭的帐单 someone sent to a bill of atone offering
我藏起畏惧和怨恨 喝下血酿的酒 i hid fear and resentment and drank the wine brewed with blood

那些行为不当的孩子怎样了? how about those misbehavior children
你对他们的计划可如期奏效? does your plan for them work well ?
看!那张口赞美你的! look! thos who praise you in their mouths !

那张口赞美你的 把时间交给了你 those who praise you in their mouths give their time to you
唱诗班走了调 Choir sing out of tune
你笑了 You smile

在半惊半喜中 in pleasantly surprised
我看见你关怀我生活的每一个细节 i see you care of every detail of my life
我索性把一切错误献给你 i simply give all mistakes to you

那有什么奇怪 nothing is strange
我已经学会了知足 i have learned contentment
随事随在我都得了秘诀 I have learned the secret of anything anywhere

电话响了 phone rings
主管没有来上班 the director does not come to his office
那正是你完美的安排 that is your perfect arrangement

没有人受伤 no one is injured
心上系了死结的 those whose hearts have knots
你的手把它解开 your hands untie them

我在大风雪中回到家 i came back home in strong wind and snow
炉子熄了火 the fire in stove went out
我靠你点燃的我的灵取暖 i warmed myself with my spirit you lit

从春天的时候 from spring time
我开始累积行为的结果 i began to accumulate the results of my behavior
我拥有一座懊丧的高山 i own a depression mountain

我叔叔的坟埋在农场角 my uncle's grave is in the corner of farm
他刚签了卖地的合同 he has just signed the sale contract of the land
那是笔好生意 that is a good trade

有个奇妙的源泉 there is a wonderful source
从我累积的高山流出来 it flows out of the mountain i accumulated
我不得不宣告破产 i have to declare bankruptcy

你将我的手提箱打翻 You overturned my suitcase
我领了你的旨意 i received your's will
看见你的作为就在那里面 saw your doings inside it

恒星没有空跑轨道 the stars did not run tracks purposelessly
光芒划破黑暗 light penetrated through dark
我和我的叔叔都赚了 i and my uncle earned

终于 我从地上复活成你的样子 finally, i resurrected into your appearance on the earth